No Matter What | Ryeji

6-Lonely

Yeji

I close the door to the bedroom leaving behind a stunned Ryujin and also my dignity as a responsible leader— well not really, I lost it a while ago but nobody's gonna know. Shhhhh

I fucked up big time. And I don't know what to do. But I know I can't sleep in the same room with Ryujin anymore, it would make me lose myself again, like how I lost myself just now. I think that's the Ryujin effect working on me.

I raps my knuckles on Chaeryeong's door a few times before she opens the door and let's me in.

"Hey unnie, you need anything?" She rubs her eyes.

I close her door behind me and explains the situation, "Me and Ryujin got in a fight, so could I stay in your room for awhile?"

"It's only temporary." I plead with her.

She just replies by waving me off.

"I don't mind, it's just..." She looks around her room.

"I.. don't have a spare bed. Where are you going to sleep?"

"Don't worry I have an extra mattress." I reassure her.

"Okay then, make yourself at home." She muttered as she plopped down on her bed, sinking into the sheets and started watching tiktoks on her phone.

Ryujin
Friday

I'm so fucking lonely.

The bedroom feels so empty without Yeji here. She moved to Chaeryeong's room after that day where we... um.. made out? Ya, I guess you could call it that. We just kissed after all. I wished it could've been more than that though.

She made me so horny that night, I couldn't sleep because I was all hot and bothered.

Anyway, we're going off topic. What was I talking about?

Oh.

About how I miss Yeji.

I miss her so damn much, her scent is gone from my room now too. I miss her scent. Her nagging is gone too, I miss her always scolding me. Her cups of watermelon juice littered around the room are also gone, I miss when I could sneak sips of her watermelon juice when she wasn't looking.

She won't even talk to me anymore, not even about work-related stuff. She just makes the other members pass the word to me. I hate that it feels like she's not even here anymore.

Near but too far to reach.

***

I lay on Yeji's cold and empty bed, staring at the ceiling whilst clutching her sheets. They still smell like her, like her hair, the smell I love so much. It feels so cold in here— and I didn't even turn on the air conditioning. I miss her warmth.

I'm just blabbering now am I?

You probably don't want to hear me talk about how much I miss her when she wasn't even mine to begin with.

I'll just switch the topic. Tomorrow is the party the company is holding for ITZY's Crazy In Love comeback. So that means I have to pick out an outfit for it, obviously, I'm not going naked.

I get up from Yeji's bed depressingly. I have no energy, and my number 1 energy booster isn't here.

I let out a drained sighed and just grabbed a random outfit from my closet— grey jeans and a purple top along with a netted cardigan.

I immediately sink into Yeji's bed again.

Suddenly, I got an idea. A desperate one, but it's worth trying right?

I need to get Yeji back.

***

ive been extremely busy this past week so only a short update :(

sorry dear reader, i'll update more next week tho