I can't do this {Ban x Fem OC}

Chapter 8

I can't believe I'm in a bath with Ban ! He got in first and sat me on his knee, that was out of the water. His head was resting on the edge of the bathtub, he had his eyes closed but I didn't move an inch.
What is wrong with me ?! Usually I'm not that uncomfortable when I'm naked on front of someone. As long as it's not Meli I'm fine.

- "For someone who was complaining about the blood on her body, I find you quite reluctant to wash it off. Do you like my blood so much, Pinky ?" He smirked sitting up, my hands still on his chest. "Or maybe you want me to help ?"

- "Finding any excuse to touch me, huh ?"

- "Got me !" He smiled.

Then everything started shaking making me fly and fall in the water. The next minute, my hands were on a hard chest and my face inches away from Ban's.
I'm not small anymore !

- "Welcome back !" Ban smiled.

I immediately remembered the situation, we're both in a bathtub. Naked. He looked down so I did the same and saw that my chest was out of the water. I let out a gasp and quickly pulled away from him and hid my chest with my arms.
In a quick movement, Ban grabbed my arms and pulled me back to him. Our faces are close again. Even closer I think. I felt his hands going down my hips. What is he ?

- "You can leave now." I told him.

- "I don't want to."

- "I can shower by myself."

- "I know." Why is he getting closer ?

Then, I felt his lips on mine. Huh ? Why is he ?

- "What's wrong, Pinky ? You don't know how to kiss a man ?" He smirked.

Not thinking about it twice, I angrily kissed him. He seemed a bit surprised at first but quickly gained his composure and kissed me back. His hands traveled up my back, then back down to my hips. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer as I played with his hair. I can't believe I'm kissing him. Wait a sec !
I pulled away.

- "Why ?" I asked.

- "Huh ?"

- "Why did you kiss me ?"

- "Isn't it obvious ?"

- "No, it's not."

- "We've spent 10 whole years together, did you really think I didn't like you ?" Liar.

I tried to get up but he pulled me back to him and kissed me again.

- "What about Elaine, then ?"

I felt his body tensing up. I knew it...

- "I'm not a rebound you'll throw away once you'll get Elaine back." I said getting out of the bathtub. "You love her, I get it, I don't blame or hate you for that. But don't make me believe that we have a chance when all you can think about is her. Don't make me love you more than I already do. Please."

I wrapped a towel around me and walked out of the bathroom. I went to my room, put on random clothes and went to bed. I really should buy normal clothes, especially if I'll be sharing my bed with Ban for long. That thing looks like a lingerie set. Well, I'm under the blanket and the light's off so he won't see anything. Why am I even worried about this ? He just saw me naked.
A while later, Ban came to bed. There was a long silence until he broke it.

- "You're right, I love Elaine. But believe me when I say, I have feelings for you."

- "I do believe you. It makes me really happy to know that you feel something for me. But I can't."

- "Why ?"

- "Elaine. Even if you won't admit it, we both know that if she comes back you'll throw me away and I don't want that."

- "I wouldn't throw you away. I love Elaine but she's not here, you are."

- "That's the thing, she's not here. If she was you wouldn't even look at me."

- "I didn't mean it like that. What I mean was that I should look at what I have now and not what I lost."

- "I don't believe you."

- "I'll show you." He said taking me in his arms.