"I won't be gone long," Bella advised. "I just want to pay my respect to the Clearwater family and then I will call you when I'm back home I promise." I nodded and watched as my Bella left my car and ran into Jacob's arms. I tried to contain my jealous rage I was annoyed that every time I witnessed this it served to make me even angrier than the first time I'd witnessed it. At least this time I knew they weren't going to be doing too much socializing. They were going to Harry Clearwater's funeral. A large part of me wished I could've gone too. I knew that his death only served prove the point that my family was desperate to refute not all vampires are monsters. Well we are, but we aren't all without caring and compassion.
I parked my car in its normal hiding space and looked up at the sky. It was so dark and cloudy.
"Sadness from the heavens," I whispered. I don't know where I'd picked that up but every time I saw a day like this I created a lump of emotion in my throat that burned almost as much as my normal thirst. I drew myself from my car and headed up the hill at a humanly pace at first and then quickly transitioned into my supernatural speed of choice ... until I heard something. It was a child giggling and then I was hit with a blinding memory that was not my own.
"Daddy, daddy spin again," the pretty little girl with big brown eyes and long ebony hair ran up to her father with her little pink dress.
"We should go inside Lee, your mother won't like you being outside and getting dirty!" A young Harry Clearwater reached his arms out to his daughter and lifted her.
"I like to play with you Daddy. You're my best friend I love you!" She cheered and Harry smiled.
"Promise you'll remember that when you're older?" An overly happy Leah nodded her head in agreement.
"Always daddy." She kissed him on the cheek.
After a few minutes I was back in my own mind but I could hear her. Leah's cries. I knew she was hurting and being around her or in the area wasn't the smartest thing for either of us. She would be with her family saying goodbye to her father and I should leave before she senses my presence and attempts to take her frustrations out on me, from what I'd heard from others that what she did best. I turned on my heel to leave and that's when I heard the rustling of the leaves approaching me. I stayed with my back turned trying to think of the best course of action. I knew I probably should leave but my curiosity got the best of me. I could tell she hadn't phased. I knew she wasn't happy by my presence but she had no thoughts other than that. Something had me deeply rooted. I couldn't leave.
"Why are you here? Shouldn't you be with your family?" She snorted.
How dare he ask me anything? It's his kind that ruined my life!
"I understand why you feel that way Leah," I started and she growl.
"Don't! Don't ever say may name Leech! You got that! You don't know jack shit about me or my life so keep my name out of your face!" She was beyond angry now but still no big angry wolf. I was confused. Maybe her temperament didn't have as much to do with her phasing like the males. I wanted to turn around, to face her. I wanted her to see that I was genuinely sorry about her loss. I wasn't afraid of this woman. I didn't want to hurt her but I knew if she phased I would have to defend myself.
"You're right Le – I will leave you alone with your thoughts," I muttered as I started to walk away.
"I wish you all would ... and take Bella with you!" She ordered but her rant wasn't finished there. "Do you realize how badly your presence in Forks has ruined me? I ... I can't stand myself because of you. I am a DOG a literal bitch! I've killed my father! I have no future with the only man I've ever loved ... please leave before you do anymore damage. Better yet stay! Go ahead and finish me off because I don't want to live this way." By the end of her speech she was sobbing and I had to turn around because I couldn't stand to see anyone in this type of pain. I looked into her eyes and I could see she meant every word. She was heartbroken. I wanted to help but how could I help when my kind caused the problem. I relied on the little bit of psychiatry training I'd had to see if I could at the very least get her to see that she would eventually move on from all of this.
"What makes you think you killed your father?"
"The very first time I phased I did it in front of him and he had a heart attack. It wasn't enough to kill him but I weakened his heart. He was already ill when that viper bitch struck. He didn't have a chance," she whimpered and started crying again. "Now I have no one. I'm all alone and stuck in this hell hole because ..." She looked up at me as if she'd lost her mind. "What am I doing? I'm so fucked up in the head I'm actually talking to you!"
Typical Leah ... idiot. She walked away from me and every instinct in me told me to follow her. I started to when my phone went off.
Bella: Ready to go
I looked into the distance and it was as if Leah had vanished. I wanted to call out to her but as she so eloquently put it she wanted me to keep her name out of my mouth. I had to walk away. I had no choice.
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Saving Leah
FanficI looked into the distance and it was as if Leah had vanished. I wanted to call out to her but as she so eloquently put it she wanted me to keep her name out of my mouth. I had to walk away.
