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Miracles in December

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Every day I change myself for the better for you
You wanted to change me
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Note* Zhan talking about Yibo

The cold December night has passed for a very long time
It was a very boring night
Without life or spirit there are only bodies
They collapse and some of them move, holding the hands of their loved ones
The other looks coldly at them

His heart is colder than December itself
He looks at the river below, long black hair reaching the middle of his neck
Beautifully arranged
Very formal clothes with a long thick coat
He holds a bouquet of roses with a ring in his hand
He waits there aimlessly
He knows he won't come

Zhan knows that he has lost him forever and his love
It will become eternal and useless
All this because of his selfishness and stupidity
He didn't see his attempts to change him, he didn't see Yibo's love for him
He didn't see how he was hurting from being hurt
From his words and his actions
How could he put up with all that for years when he didn't care
And now the karma comes back to him
She tells him that he is a loser, stupid, and foolish, and that his selfishness made him
A real gem is lost among fake pieces
It is one of those fake pieces in his life
'Where are you? I'm trying to find you, you who cannot be seen.'
He said while shedding tears and imagining it
'Hey zhan gege it's New Year's Eve why don't we go out
and celebrate together like any married couple'
His beautiful little husband Yibo said as he looked at him with his brown eyes lovingly
'Go alone, I don't care, I have more important work than you.'
Zhan said in an ice cold tone
He looked at him dryly
'Oh, it's okay, Zhan Ge, I don't want to go out anymore.'
The view of love for pain has changed
He left him and went to his room to return to work without any care

He shed a tear as he remembered his pained look
How foolish he was
Why didn't he hold him by the waist and hug him lovingly?
He tells him that he knows that he is his love
He deserves everything good, he deserves the love of the whole world
It makes him feel like a miracle sent to him by God
But it hurt him so badly that he shed another tear
'While I'm trying to hear your voice, you who no one can hear'
He whispered as he tightened his grip on that bundle of roses

'gege, do you know what happened today at university? The professor praised me and told me that I was...
I will get a full mark and when I graduate I will be
Your assistant and help you with your work
He said in his angelic voice while smiling at the person who was watching the TV and listening to him boredly
'Um'
He said without caring to continue
'I also came across a little puppy who was very cute
I wanted to caress his hair more.
He was interrupted by his painful words
'Can't you just shut up for a second? Don't you see that you're so annoying, Yibo?'
He left the remote control and went to the room, slamming the door hard and shedding a hot tear since that day
He doesn't talk to him much anymore

The world looked at that man standing there as if he was crazy
He was smacking his mouth while shedding tears
'I'm sorry, sorry, please, I still miss your words, Yibo
I'm a stupid fool. I was lying. I want to hear
Your voice comes back to me more and more'
He said in a tired voice while smacking his mouth violently
What is the benefit of regret after a loss?
He was able to see things he had never seen before
He knew how disgusting and despicable it was
How selfish an animal
He was able to hear words he had never heard before

'You are a selfish fool. You will lose him because of your coldness.'
'You deserve it you didn't keep him'
'He didn't want to leave you. He loved you. He was the only one who stood by your side while everyone was against you
He endured your poverty and anger until you stood on your feet and made you rich, but what did you do?
you made him hate life '
He could hear all this when he left it
He knew how cold and despicable he was, and he wished to turn back time
But how and when
he does not know
When he left him, all his strength disappeared, his dream disappeared
His beautiful world, his warm, tidy home
The family table no longer exists
When he left him, he gained strength that he had never had before
He wished he had not acquired it