KABIRAA

CHAPTER 38

AASHIQA'S POV

My eyes widened when I saw him dropping on his knees and holding my hands while crying. I cannot stand a single tear in his eyes and here he was crying which pierced my heart and shattered it into many pieces.

I immediately sat infront of him and hugged him. His head was on my chest and my arms were around his shoulder patting and rubbing there for him calm down.

After sometime he wrapped his arms around my waist and hugged me closer while nuzzling his head more into my chest.

I felt wetness on my cheeks and I realized I was also crying. How can I not when the man whom I adore, love more than anything, always saw him ruling with authority and power crying in my arms and I am not able to do something.

I let him cry as much as he wants because he also need to let out his emotions. Whose who says man don't cry can go to hell. I think the man who cries is the strongest of all. This means that he had been hiding and controlling his emotions from so long. For me my man..my Abir is the strongest and no one else can change this.

"Baby" I whispered softly and repeatedly kissed his forehead to calm him down. His cries were like someone is stabbing me again and again. And now I can't see him crying.

"Jaan" I again whispered and ran my hand through his soft and silky hairs to calm him and that worked.

His cries subsided and he was now sobbing in my embrace. I rubbed his back from one hand and caressed his hairs form the other while kissing his forehead again and again.

When I saw that he was now silent and was sniffing I pulled his face a little away from my chest and looked at his face.

My eyes again turned teary after looking at his face. His face was red and stained with tears but he was not looking into my eyes.

"Abir" I whispered and made him look into my eyes.

His eyes met mine and the tears which were controlled fell down. His eyes were swollen and red from crying.

"My baby" I said and again hugged him. His head was on the base of my neck and my hands were around his shoulders.

He sighed and hugged me tightly.I felt him shivering because of the cold wind that is coming from the balcony door.

"Abir" I said and pulled out of the hug, he looked at me with his red eyes. I stood up and helped him stand up.

"Idhar ayiye" I said and took him towards the bed and made him sit on the side. I turned around to walk towards the table where water jug is kept but his grip on my wrist stopped me

"Don't go" he said in his raspy voice because of crying

I leaned towards him and grabbed his face and placed a kiss on his forehead

"I am not going anywhere hmm...just going to bring water" I said and he nodded still keeping his grip on my wrist

I gently removed his hand and kissed there, moved towards the table and filled glass with water then walked towards him and sat beside him.

I placed the glass near his lips and he drank the water.

I placed the glass on the table and sat beside him silently looking at his actions.He was looking down on his lap without saying anything. Not able to bear his behavior more I grabbed his face and said

"Ab bataiye mujhe..kya hua??" I said

He looked at me for few seconds and again turned his face towards his lap.