Endless Desire

Chapter One

                                Natalie's Pov

As I slowly surfaced from the depths of sleep, the soft glow of morning light filtering through the curtains greeted me. With a contented sigh, I stretched my limbs, feeling the comforting pull of waking consciousness tugging at the edges of my mind.

As I sat in my bedroom, the muffled sound of my mum's voice drifted through the walls, carrying with it a sense of determination. I could tell she was on the phone, discussing her business affairs with someone on the other end of the line.

Having recently relocated to Spain, I find myself immersed in a new chapter of life. Stepping into the unknown of a new environment, I am filled with a mix of hope and trepidation, especially when it comes to forging new friendships. While the idea of connecting with others and building meaningful relationships fills me with a sense of longing, it's often overshadowed by the weight of my own insecurities and fears. Struggling with social anxiety, each interaction feels like a daunting hurdle to overcome, fraught with the possibility of rejection or misunderstanding. The thought of initiating conversations or putting myself out there in social settings sends shivers down my spine, as the fear of judgment looms large in my mind.

In our wealthy neighborhood, my mom's online business shines like a beacon of success. Despite the divorce from my dad, she's thrived, pouring her heart and soul into her digital journey. Her dedication has paid off, with her products gaining popularity far and wide. Her success not only inspires me but also serves as a reminder that with hard work and passion, anything is possible.

My favourite subject has always been English literature. English literature won't be about reading books anymore. It'll be about learning the English language itself, especially since I've moved to a different country. Growing up i have always wanted to be a lawyer. But lately, I've been thinking differently. The prospect of starting my own business now excites me more than ever.

Today marks the beginning of my journey at a new school, surrounded by a language I've yet to master. I hope to keep my nerves in check and avoid having a panic attack. With a deep breath and a pep talk to myself, I muster up the courage to face the challenge head-on. After all, I've tackled new beginnings before, and I'm ready to conquer this one too. With a blend of butterflies fluttering in my stomach, I stride out of the room, ready to take on whatever the day may bring.

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Stepping out of my mum's car, I took a deep breath, letting the unfamiliar sights and sounds of my new school sink in. The towering building loomed before me, its architecture starkly different from my previous school. With each step toward the entrance, a mix of nervousness  surged through me.

As I walk into the halls of my new school, a friendly teacher approaches me with a warm smile. "Are you Miss Kowalska?" I nod and i follow her into the school office. She welcomes me into the school community and hands me my timetable, reassuring me that everything will be alright. With her guidance, I navigate to my first lesson, grateful for her kind gesture. The sense of support and inclusion from that brief interaction sets a positive tone for the rest of the day, easing my nerves.

Looking over my timetable, I see a mix of subjects lined up for the day. There's math, history, science, and English.

English will be a breeze since I already know the language, but with all the other subjects, I feel like I'm going to be swimming in a sea of confusion, struggling to understand what anyone is saying. Why am I overthinking this so much?