Profound

Chapter-10- The Heartbroken Riddle

Chapter-10-The Heartbroken Riddle

Sophia's POV:

I can't process my thoughts, an excruciating pain is flowing through me and I can't make sense of it .

Riddle suddenly kneeled down beside me so that he was eye level to me. He suddenly took back the curse with his wand and I fell down because I couldn't sit anymore. I was exhausted, exhausted from resisting the cruciatic curse.

"Sofia!", Riddle said with concern filled in his voice and I could see his eyes, eyes which were filled with... Compassion? But no, he is a devil, he can never feel kindness, he himself said it to me.

Then I closed my eyes, the last thing I saw was Riddle frantically asking me if I am fine.

No, I wasn't fine. I was utterly shattered because of Voldemort, he took away my mom, and now he is trying to take away my spirit too.

Tom Riddle's POV:

God! What I had done! If I take her to the hospital wing then I am sure they will send me to Azkaban. I would rather die than going there.

So, I have no choice than to wait , wait till classes get finished so that I can take Sofia to the Room Of Requirement and treat her there.

I can't afford to take her to the hospital wing, I will be the first they will suspect.

I went outside the cabinet, acting like I just didn't crucio a student.

I went through all of my other classes throughout the day with a tensed mind. I couldn't help but worry about Sofia.

Now, I am currently doing dinner, I didn't want to but the teachers are so keen in observing me that they will ask me where was I even if I skip my meals.

After dinner, I went to the cabinet beside Divination's classroom and picked Sofia up from there.

I took her to Room Of Requirement and placed her on the bed, I basically requested the room for a comfortable house with living room, bathroom, bedroom and kitchen.

It was good actually, I didn't expect this. I came here a lot of times when I was a student but I have never asked for a house or something.

Ok now I have to heal Sofia first, I think some healing charms will do the work. I started doing the spells on her and she stirred slightly which made me stop my spell work and kneel beside the bed on her side.

She opened her eyes and looked at me for a few seconds, and then she abruptly sat up and moved away from me with fear in her eyes.

That's when my heart broke, why? The reason is inexplicable to me too.
I just never thought I would see fear in her eyes because she was never scared of me, she was the one who hated me with all of her and now, just with one of the unforgivable curse, I ruined her. The power to scare people has never felt more futile to me.

I so badly wanted her to be scared of me before attacking her, that was the sole reason why I attacked her but why am I feeling this strange, empty, and guilty now?

I don't know why I am experiencing these emotions, I don't want to but I can't help it and resisting those is of no use. I have never tried to push back any emotions before because all I felt was anger, rage, ambitious, hatred before but now, I am feeling slightly that I am becoming a... human.

"I am not scared of you and stop being stupid, and use occlumecy for once!", Sofia screamed at me from the other side of bed.

Even though she was saying she isn't scared of me, fear was visible in her eyes still, fear which is making me feel angry, angry at myself.

I got up and went towards her on the bed and she started backing away more so I just stopped and looked at her because if she would have backed out more then she would have fallen off of the bed and I don't want her to get more hurt because of me. I have already did enough.

I saw that her hands are shaking badly and her head is down in a defeated way, tears strolling down her eyes.

I don't know what came over me but I held her hands abruptly and started caressing them in a comforting way. Again, I don't know what came over me, I uttered a sentence which was so foreign to me that it sounded very strange.

"I am sorry ", I said and her head snapped up at that and she looked at me with those tearful eyes which gave my heart a painful tug.

"I hate you!", she tried to scream and her voice cracked while crying.

Suddenly she started hitting me and punching me in the chest muttering I hate yous continuously, and I just let her because for the first time in my life, I feel guilty or regretful about something, other than losing in the Battle Of Hogwarts ofcourse.

"Why!?", She screamed at me and stopped hitting. She sat infront of me looking at me with those beautiful eyes.

Is it me? I am complementing her when she literally hit me! Am I sane?? Or I have become crazy because of this girl?

"Why what?", I asked looking directly into her eyes.

"Why? Why do you ruin my peace everytime? Do you know I couldn't sleep because of you from my fifth year as I was scared that you were reborn? Do you know how much happy and relieved I was that you were dead? So, why? Why did you come back? Is one of your revenge is due that you have come back to take it? If yes, then just go, just go and die somewhere. Atleast then, the wizarding world will get peace.", She cried, she basically said all those words in a pained voice. And her words are making my heart clench in painful twists and turns that I can't describe how I am feeling right now.

I just know one thing, I have never felt this before. Just when I was about to say something, I felt tears streaming down my cheeks like a river, or basically rivers.

Then, I started to cry, in that room where my voice can't be heard, where I am away from all of the gazes which can make me go cold again, where the only soul present is the one I never wanted to hurt. It's genuine now, I am feeling bad, very bad now that I hate myself.

I scared Sofia so much that she couldn't even sleep, that she couldn't even live in peace for 3 years, well basically all of her life because I am sure she heard about me from the day she was born.

I scared away all of the children in my orphanages, later my followers or just friends for pretense, and afterwards, the whole world but I never felt guilty of hurting someone. But now, my sadistic walls are breaking down like fragile war walls, and I can't stop it from entirely ruining me with its damage.

' I am sorry, please forgive me... I know this isn't enough, I know but this is all I can do for u. I can't bring back your mom. I want to bring her back so badly now, trust me, I want to go back in time and change my fucking psychopathic mind but I can't. I am truly sorry and everyone is right, I am a monster. I may never feel sorry for the things I did to the world, or others because that's just who I am but I swear, I have never felt guilty to this extent just because I have hurted someone. But just now, as you said those words, I truly felt it, and I know now, I know how much I have broken you.',

I wanted to say all of these words to her as I cried but no I couldn't. I didn't say anything. I kept all of these words locked up in my heart because the tears were flowing so continuously that I couldn't even talk.