ON THE MORNING I SEE NIALL DRESSING UP. HE DRESS UP FAST AND HE LOOKS CRAZY. HE LOOKED AT ME AND SAY SORRY BECAUSE F WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT. I ASK HIM WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT AND HE SAID AND EXPLAIN. HE ASK FAVOR TO ME THAT I WONT TELL IT TO HIS GF BECAUSE HE DONT WANT TO BREAK UP WITH HIS GF.I UNDERSTAND THAT BUT I CANT FORGET WHAT WE DO LAST NIGHT.
NIALL GO AWAY AND I ALSO GET SHOWER CRYING AND DRESS UP. AFTER DRESSING UP I GO TO BOOK STORE/ STORE FOR SCHOOL SUPPLIES I BUY NEW NOTEBOOK.
I WROTE ALL WHAT HAPPENED TO ME, I WROTE THAT I LIKE MY BFF, THE BAD FEELINGS AND GOOD, ALL OF MY MEMORIES AND I WROTE ALSO WHAT HAPPENED TO ME AND NIALL LAST NIGHT.
DEAR DIARY,
I THINK I MESS UP WITH MY SELF, I KNOW THAT I LOVE NIALL BUT ITS NOT RIGHT TO HAVE SEX WITH MY BFF. YEAH I ALSO WANT TO BE KISSED AND HAVE S*X WITH MY BFF NIALL. I WANT TO CRY LOUD AND KILL MYSELF BUT I CANT I LOVE NIALL AND I CANT LEAVE HIM ALONE. I NEED TO SUPPORT HIM.
I WILL TELL THE TRUTH THAT I ENJOY IT MAKING OUT WITH NIALL. BUT I THINK I WILL NOT DO IT AGAIN BECAUSE I DONT WANT HIS GF TO BE HURT... SORRY THATS ALL I CAN WRITE NOW BECAUSE IM SO TIRED
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AFTER WRITING AT MY DIARY I KEEP IT INSIDE MY DRAWER. I GO OUT TO GO TO PARK.
I WALK ALONG THE PARK I SAW NIALL AND HIS GF SITTING WHEN I SEE THEM SITTING AND CUDDLING THE TEARS RUN DOWN ON MY ROSY CHEECKS BUT INSTEAD OF CONTINUING WALKING TOWARDS THEM I WALK AWAY AND GO HOME. I ALMOST CRY FOR AN HOUR AND I STP CRYING BECAUSE ITS NOT WORTH IT..
AFTER CRYING I FELL ASLEEP..
CHAPTER 3~~ COMING SOON :)
