"fuck, laila, do you ever think about anything other than people's feelings? what about yours?"
"i... i don't know, that's not how it works."
| 𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐂𝐇 laila rhodes is in love with someone who loves her back, but i...
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Jared's saying you're busy Too busy for a drink on wednesday?
I keep forgetting about the fact that i need new friends that don't involve Gen and Jared because seriously, why would he tell Jensen i'm busy? I mean... i have finals next week and i've hardly studied for them, but that's besides the point.
He sent the message an hour ago so i can safely open it and respond now, not that i was watching the message for the past hour or anything.
Never How about soony's? 7's okay?
im not sure what the obsession with bar's names being people's but it's the one nearest to me, i'd rather not waste time ubering when i need to be studying, besides if anything happens (like me making a fool out of myself) i can bolt.
His response is almost immediate and it makes me smile while feeling stupid that i had made him wait before.
7 for drinks?
Oh shit, i forgot he means drinks drink. The alcoholic version.
Sorry, early riser What time works?
Nah it's fine
You sure? I don't mind nine
I'll see you at 7, sweetheart
Way to make a girl swoon, ackles. Because he can, with just one look. he is the most attractive man i have ever seen in my entire life, and that's saying something because where i'm from (the supernatural set), there is no shortage of them.
I've always loved my home, Egypt, and i never actually wanted to leave, up until i started looking for colleges and knew that staying wasn't the right thing for me. I wanted to find a life outside of my family drama, and i wanted to expand without them holding me back, so i came here, to good old america, applied to stanford and actually got in.
It was surprising to literally everyone i know, no one thought i'd leave my parents after i'd been so dependent on them my whole life, but i knew it was what's right for me, so i did it, and i don't regret a second of it. I met some of the most incredible people here, albeit, they are celebrities so of course i believe they're incredible, but still.
I had met Danneel first, Jensen's ex wife, back when she was a model and i needed a part time job. I was her manager's assistant so we both got to know each other pretty well. We even hung out a few times outside of work and eventually, she showed me Jared, Jensen, Misha and then the whole team, now i'm there more than she is.
Back then i used to talk to Jensen more (by that i mean i had a proper conversation with him twice) because danneel was still in the picture, i never let myself even look in the man's direction, but now? I don't see her, so i decided it's better i hardly see him too.
Danneel took the divorce pretty hard, i'd say harder than Jensen. He took a week off to make sure everything was fine with the kids and that she was settled, but then he came right back to set, from what i've heard, but Danneel had called me to cry about the situation a multitude of times. I was there for her, i always was, but she became distant after a month or so and she wouldn't even let me see the kids. I tried to go over to where i thought she lived, some small neighborhood in wisconsin, but her neighbors told me she moved out and i hadn't heard from her again.
I would like to bring it up to Jensen and ask about her, of course, but i've always ignored him, i hardly talked to him even when i was in his own home, i don't know if have it in me to be bold like that and demand answers i have no right to.
It's also why this feels wrong. I'm more scared of this happening than it not happening. I don't want Danneel to come back and find something like this out, it would devastate her and she's the one who showed me these people in the first place, i wouldn't do that to her. But she'd want me to be at least civil with Jensen, so this is what Wednesday's date is, just something for us to be civil, get to know each other and then hopefully we go back to set and he stops telling people that i'm a bitch (not his exact words, not even close, but that's not the point).
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"Come in." I yell when i hear someone knock on the front door. It could only be Jared or Gen, anyways, so i'm not worried.
"Hey, bitch." I smile at my best friend's voice and throw my book off my lap and onto the table where i was studying.
"Hey, Gen! where's Jared?" they're too attached at the hip for me not to say anything.
"I'm not sure, out with Jensen? Filming? Who cares, it's us girls tonight now that Rachel's better." A week in the hospital will helped heal her minor injuries, like her bruised ribs. We're all incredibly grateful that the other car had come from the passengers side, so she hadn't taken as hard of a hit as we thought.
"Yeah, of course, where are we headed?" She closes my front door with a smirk i know all too well.
When i said my friends weren't high maintenance, i meant they wouldn't pressure me into going out, like my friends in Egypt used to do, but that doesn't mean they don't ask.
Again, i have finals, but i'm too shy to say anything so i decide i'll make a study plan for next week and cancel everything then.
"We're going to go see danneel." My eyes widen as i stare back at her.
