Abusive Boyfriend

Chpt 16. suprise

A/N: TAKE YOUR TIME READING

Standing there in shock and confusion. I blinked a couple of times "Ceejay?", I ask knowing the answer. I started to cry, a few tears dropped that's when he embraced me in a big hug. Visions of him have been wrapped in my head, I prayed that he'd come back.
As his arms snake around my waist it brings back a feeling, a feeling that I can't explain, a feeling that i've been longing for. The last time I've heard him say "I love you" has been repeating since 2017.
I felt like a Christmas present, I can feel his love beaming, all of those nights I've cried, trying to be as silent as I can and not wake the kids up. We stayed in that position, and it feels so right, it stayed that way until our kids started to pull on my dress.

I looked down at kimora as she said, "mommy, is that daddy?" ziggy ran up and pull on her dads black slacks and said, "hey daddy".
The way Ceejay smiled had millions of thoughts running across my brain. I'm so happy that they finally see their dad, they can finally hear his voice. The rest of the four came up, Chanel, Kaycee, Chyannie, & Becca. They had the look of remembrance and that had me feeling something on the inside. They know him from pictures I have shown them but he's taller, buffer, locs grew out, then there go his famous goatee. except It looks grown out but freshly groomed.

Six of our kids surrounding us, I always told Cj I wanted 20 kids and people looked at me crazy whenever I say twenty. Sometimes they stop me from talking when they hear "twen".
I look back up to Ceejay(Cj) and see he's already looking at me. Y'all know me, I started smiling and stoop up on my tippy toes 'with heels on' and kissed him.
We hear "ewwwwww" coming from Kimora, Ziggy, Chyannie, and Becca while Kaycee and Chanel was staring in awe. I can already tell how these six were going to be lol but I will promise to be on this earth for as long as they need me. "I miss you so much" Ceejay said to me. I tell him I miss him more. Ziggy pulled on her dad pants and yell, "Daddy!", Ceejay can't tell which is who so I give him their names.
I went inside to let them get their time with their daddy.

I look in the window to him playing and talking with them, even took photos and I took off guard photos of course. I am so suprised with myself but at the same time not, without Ceejay paying for me to get therapy I would've went off on him, even if I knew the reason which I didn't. I don't know the reason for his disappearance. I don't know anything at all but will I be asking him questions? For sure. Am I mad and wanna slap the shit out of him? Yes. But going through therapy and not knowing why he left, I can't just spazz on him. I need to love on him first and spend some quality time before we have this difficult debate.

I don't want to jump to conclusions, I know it's going to take a day at a time and all I have to do is take breathes every other 24 hours. We will need to have a deep conversation and he will have to help me comprehend his departure. I don't know what happened to him after these past twelve years, how did he show up out of no where? I don't know, but i've been searching up and down for this nigga, the love of my life is here, with me.
I'm so upset, confused, irritated, with all of these questions in my head because I can't answer them.
I hate hearing questions I can't answer.
How can he just pop up like that?
About three hours went past it's currently 5:50 in the pm.
The noise of the door opening scared away my thoughts as I seen Ceejay walking in.

Heyy, know some of y'all been waiting!! The next chapter will be longer (I promise it will be more than the 500 word chapters I do lol)

Word Count: 763
Next twenty or so chapter will have you guys so invested
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a lil secret🗣️: there will be a throw back throughout them 12 years.
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