The Lucky One

All Stars Burn Out Eventually

˚₊‧꒰ა Kats POV ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Once I made it back to the house, mom still wasn't back. She was rerecording a few of her songs as well as recording for her new album. I threw my bag on the floor and rushed upstairs, desperate to see the comments on the post. I grabbed my phone from my pocket and flopped down on my bed. I found the post and opened up the comments.

Oh..I expected her to look better considering she is taylors daughter...

Damn anyone else think she is lowkey fat lmao

omg her hair is to die forrrr

not her friend looking better than her im dead

she needs to stop eating pizza and hit the gym LOL

I know I shouldn't have looked but I just can't help it. I have always been overly aware of myself and the way others perceive me. I kept scrolling down and there were a few nice comments but they didn't outweigh the bad ones. I locked my phone as tears threatened to spill out of my eyes and headed to my bathroom. I locked the door and stared at myself in the mirror. I noticed a lot of things I hadn't noticed before. My stomach stuck out, my thighs touched, my arms were jiggly, my jawline was almost non-existing along with my collarbones. 

Something had to change.

I pulled my phone back out and sat on the floor of the bathroom. I immediately opened twitter and search my name, the first post popping up being from edtwt. What the hell is edtwt?? I opened the thread and saw it was a fatspo post. The first picture on there was of me. 

she is literally repulsive and bringing down Taylors image someone sew her mouth shut!!!

I throw my phone across the bathroom and sit there sobbing. I sob and sob until there aren't any tears left in my eyes and then I get in the shower.

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Once mom finally got home and I had calmed down from my breakdown we sat on the couch watching Greys Anatomy. All I can think about though is those comments. They replay in my head over and over again. 

"kat?"

"earth to kat are you ok?"

I quickly snap out of my thoughts to see my mom staring at me with a worried look.

"oh yeah sorry I got lost in my thoughts" I said barely above a whisper.

"what's wrong baby?" she said as she pulled me into a hug. I love her hugs. They are safe and warm and nothing else seems to matter when she hugs me.

"nothing just a bit stressed about school" I lied while playing with her hair. I hate lying to her but I don't want her to know. She will freak out and make it into something its not because of her own past. 

"oh I'm sorry, how about I start cooking dinner and we can talk more about it while we eat?"

"I'm not really hungry right now, we had a pizza party in class and I ate a bunch then" I lied again. I'm not even fully sure why I lied because I was hungry. 

"Are you sure? Not even a little?" she asked as she stroked my head, playing with my curls. 

"yeah I'm ok." I reply "I think I'm going to head up to my room and try to get some rest for tomorrow" 

I stood up and gave my mom a kiss on her forehead and walked up to my room. I grabbed my phone and went back onto edtwt to see what it was after seeing that thread about me. I very quickly realized it was an eating disorder side of the internet. 

I decided to make an account dedicated to this side of twitter. I needed to loose weight. I needed to stop ruining my moms fame and I needed people to like me again. 

First I need to see how much I weigh though. That was going to be hard. Mom doesn't allow scales in the house because it's a trigger for her and I don't want to trigger her but I need one. I went on amazon and found one that someone recommended on twitter and bought it. I feel bad but I know its what is best for everyone.

A/N: haii again I hope u like it so far!!! I know where i'm going with this story but if you have any ideas for it lmk!! Stay safe my angels <33