- 4. call me maybe ♡ dakota pov : july 26th 2023 , wednesday 5:47pm
it had been week since romelo followed me on instagram , 5 days since autumn went back home , 4 days since i've really been out of the house , and 3 days since me and romelo started talking.
autumn leaving really got to me , i can't even lie. i shed a tear but that was about it cause im a real nigga , but real niggas cry too though. the night of autumn leaving we went over to javion's mom's house for his nieces birthday party since she invited all of us. she asked to have a party last minute so her mom ( javion's sister) decided to have a last minute party in her mothers backyard with a bunch of water games and blowup water slide.
we didn't have much of plan and decided to help set up the party and help our pockets cause what do we look like. after setting up the party we took a break due to us being exhausted and the heat not making it any better.
after our break we tried to just sit out side and watch but as the party went on the boys decided to crash her party by wrestling on the slip n slide which led the rest of us to jump in. after the party came to a close mulani's grandma invited us over to her house to swim im in her pool and hottub.
after the pool we went down to the basement, freshened up , baked cookies, played a few games, watched movies, and layed down for bed.
i had ended up waking up at 3:00 in the morning to use the bathroom but i wasn't able to go back to bed. so i ended up sitting outside on the back yard deck putting on my black airpod max headphones and started admiring my surroundings. mulani's grandmother had a beautiful garden.
she had been growing it since i met mulani back in 2nd grade. it wasn't much back then but now it had finally reached it's full potentia like grandma mu had ways planned it to. looking at her garden made me start to think back to old times. when we used to run around the neighborhood not caring about how we looked, not worrying abt how long it would take someone to text us back , or when the next test was. just us girls genuinely having fun.
making me almost instantly start thinking about marcy , marcy was my other half. she died back in may due to substance abuse it was unintentional though, i just know it was marcy would've never done anything like that on purpose.
i just wish i was able to be there. every time i try to think of all the good times i can only think of how much i failed her. whenever it came to me and her she was always the strong one and it was always me with the issues.
never in my life would i think marcy would do anything to put harm upon herself. we had just started getting back to how things used to be , i thought everything was going back to the old times and would be able to accomplish everything we had planned.
i just can't never help but ask why ? why her ? she was always so kind to others. she always wanted to see the positive side of things , so why her ?
i started to feel someone's presence coming towards me causing me to jump quickly , it was just ethan though. causing me to exhale.
" what's wrong dakota ? " ethan said while wiping the tears off of my face , i hadn't even noticed i started crying. at a certain point i didn't know i had any left to cry.
i shook my head " im fine i was just thinking" i said while smiling. " oh " he said as we sat in silence as he joined me looking at the sky. back in 8th grade me and ethan had this thing going on nothing serious though. i just found him attractive.
so i kissed him. thinking back on it i was just really lonely and had got out of my first some what serious relationship. i apologized to him about though since he didn't feel the same , even though i technically didn't feel much for him and was forcing myself to like him but you know what happened , happened.
i really regret doing that though cause it created this weird division between us , i think it's because he doesn't trust me too control myself. i wish things could go back to the way they were , it's never to fix that though right.
" ethan " i said while turning over to him . " yeah" he said finally look back at me. " what can i do to fix our relationship ? before you try and lie i know things aren't okay. " i said fixing my bonnet on my head. "im not even sure where things really went wrong dakota" he said while looking back up at the sky then back at me.
" i just want you to know that you can trust me to not do any weird stuff like what i did then. making a move on you even anc putting you in position where you have to choose between two people you care abt was and is very selfish of me. that could not only ruin our friend group but our personal friendship to. i knew it was wrong as soon as i started looking you the way i did. it was a mistake , i regret it , and i'll always be sorry."i said looking at him searching for a hint of forgiveness.
"to be honest i don't even really understand how you still find it in yourself to be around me" i said chuckling in hopes of lighting the mood .
he wasn't looking back at me though , i could tell he was in his thoughts. i understand that was a lot to take in so i just let him be and joined him watching the sky as well.
after a few minutes of sitting in silence i was starting to get tired so i pulled out my phone posting to my story before i forgot.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
" ethan im ready to go back inside " i said tapping him. he had finally looked directly at after looking up for the past couple of minutes causing me to smile. " im not ready yet , ill come in , in a minute " he said dragging his hand down his face. " are you sure i can wait a little longer if you need " i said.
" just go inside dakota im fine " he said looking back at me. i stood there waiting because something just wouldn't let me move from my spot. i think he finally got the hint of me needing confirmation. he raised his hand giving me a thumbs up and a light smile. that finally made me comfortable enough to return back to my spot on mulani's pink sleeping bag and doze off.
hi guyss 😽 sorry for giving you guys such a long wait for this chapter but with all my school stuff and personal stuff motivation for the book wasn't really in the plan. i'm gonna give myself at least until summers over to finish 😅.
