I Love You Forever

Chapter 5

Freen Pov

   Kapapasok ko lang dito sa loob ng Room naabutan kung chinichek ng nurse si Nana at nakabantay lang si Mama sa gilid nag aabang kung may sasabihin ang nurse.Hindi ko na sila pinansin diretso ako umupo sa upuan na pang isahan.Nag buntong hininga ako iniisip ang nangyari kanina.Parang pinagsisihan ko ata ang ginawa ko kay Becky.Ngayon ko napagtanto maling mali yung bigla akong nag react ng ganun..wala namang masamang ginawa yung shark guy na yun pero talagang selos na selos ako!Now because of my stupidity i regreted not responding those sweet gesture she did on me earlier..Haaayyyy my bb😔.

Im a jealous person actually.Madali akong makaramdam ng selos but i dont show it to her every time kasi malapad din naman ang pang unawa ko.Sa amin ako yung more thoughtful.I can be very sensitive too pero magaling akong magdala at magaling akong magtago ng nararamdaman.Pareho kaming malambing ni Becky.Ako mahilig akong magbigay sa kanya ng mga bagay na paborito nya or mga bagay na ako mismo ang gumawa.Si Becky naman palaging may extra yung sweetness nya..super clingy gustong gusto nya palagi kami magka dikit..minsan sa sobrang clingy kung saan saan na humahawak!Charooooooooooot🤣
Nagbibigay din sya ng bagay sa akin pero madalas tinatanggihan ko..kasi naman puro mga jewelry na sobrang mamahalin talaga ang nireregalo nya,at isa yan sa madalas namin na pinag aawayan nagagalit sya sa tuwing tumatanggi ako.We have in common din..We both doesnt like surprises.Becky also is very honest.If i would ask something to her she would answer it directly and details to details.
Hindi uso sa kanya ang "i would skip that part kasi baka magalit ako or magselos" its not that manhid sya sadyang ganyan talaga sya sa akin..she never hesitate to tell me everything.!Her reason was because she doesnt like to hide anything from me.And i really admire her even more for that,coz i can always trust her 100% and it always makes me feel that my heart is secured and safe.

I could tell na matatag talaga ang relationship namin for almost two years weve been together  i didnt see any obsticle,we were hiding it for a long time now but we manage it perfectly.Ito ang unang beses na nag confess ako kay Mama..walang takot at walang kaba kung inamin sa kanya ang about sa relasyon namin ni Becky..i wasnt really sure if she accepted at first,when i was telling her tahimik lang sya nakikinig sa akin.I didnt see anger in her face,sobrang seryoso lang nya,doon ako kinabahan ng kaunti..pero I assume Mama wanted to understand the situition first?But then after i told her everything wala pa rin syang sinabi..as in no comment at all.Thats the reason why Becky seems uncomfortable with my mother. Until now mama Pheobe still doesnt say anything,never talked at all,never asked or mentions about my relationship with Becky.Napag uusapan naman namin si Becky pero sa ibang bagay nga lang.My bb as a sign of respect she always gave mom a space and time.Kaya pag anjan si Mama sobrang behave nyan nawawala ang pagka clingy.
She would always greet mom also whenever they met,and mom would smile in respond..thats all,they never had the moment to talk.Becky and i decided to just wait Mom until she is ready.

Well to tell the truth its not the first time i dated with a woman.
I was only 17 she was my schoolmate.The girl was my first crush,my first Love,my first kiss,my inspiration,my reason to go to school everyday.But our love story ended very short because suddenly she just dissapear.She left without saying goodbye.I looked for her and asked many students they  say she went abroad,and some say she transfer to another school.And then i got tired and i stop looking.It was so painful that my tears wouldnt stop to fall.She left me with a BrokenHeart.My mother kept asking  if what happened to me during that time coz i never stop crying,i couldnt eat,and i dropped school and the worst thing was wala akong mahanap na tamang taong mapag sabihan ng nararamdaman ko.My Mom should be the right person but i was not ready to confess to her.I was vulnerable and scared at the same time..Takot na takot pa ako noon na malaman ni Mama na babae ang iniiyakan ko.The Good thing was she got tired of asking,so it ends up a puzzle to her until now.But even if she didnt know kung bakit ako nagkakaganun,never pa rin nya ako iniwan.Palagi syang naka bantay sa akin.
Nung totally naka moved on na ako,saka naman nakalimutan ko kung paano magmahal ulit.I rejected men and women many times.I refused receiving flowers and suitors.Natatakot at baka masaktan nanaman.Palagi kong hinihiling noon na sana kung magmahal man ako muli sana sa isang taong poprotektahan ako.Yung taong hindi napapagod na iparamdam sa akin araw araw na secured at safe ang puso ko sa kanya.Alam kung medjo imposibli naman talaga ang hiling ko,sobrang hirap din makahanap ng ganyang tao....but Becky made my wish came true,she made it so easy.She loved me unconditionally.She always makes me feel so special.Im always her priority.She is the perfect woman,the perfect woman just for me.