My Heart Beatz

little music box

I thought that I could

Thought it was my time

It felt like it was ready

But I was again wrong

I didn't pay attention to

the type of heart song

my heart now so heavy

my tears they never end

from my cloud I am forced into having to descend

the music box inside me

tucked away in my heart

wasn't playing when I woke it just didn't want to start

And slowly begin to detach and fall completely apart

As if to never ever be fixed

unrepairable unfixable and unwanted and unloved too

Giving myself and my love after what is been through

Trying to solve so many of these problems and issues

All by my lonesome I am and always will be I guess

Thinking this wont change this late in life nontheless

Promising to always and only give my all my best

And into myself is where I should first try to invest

I cant believe that it was I whom created this mess

The day my secret music box that is in me hidden

away from everyone else

to hear it is very forbidden

if interest is shown well I am sure to be so smitten

It gives me an idea of the way things may actually go

its been there since I ever could have known to know

it is what makes the winds in me continue on to blow

That is me and it's all there is to it that's what I know

this here train has gone about as far as it will go

when out of the little music box melodies do not flow

it accounts for many things that go on inside my head

without it I can promise you Id definitely be dead

But so far it's outages have been extremely short bits

Dead wasn't the answer for me I keep on living instead

my tears sometimes feel as if from my eyes they bled

Little music box keeps me from finding a way insane