My Heart Beatz

Infinite Music

I suffer in silence due to my being ashamed

Ashamed of how desperate I have become

Of how co dependant I've started to be

When I'm alone I often find myself in tears

But its harder being alone the higher your years

Carrying so much sadness in my heart

Feeling like things will never get better

Like I should just give up on myself but

Moreso I'm ready to give up on life as a whole

Ever since my innocence was stole

Music soft and sweet play off in the distance

the continual strum of the guitar and

gentle strokes on a piano

and a sweet melody in my head

the only reason Im not already dead

I decided to bet on myself instead

The melody in my heart and mind

Changes suddenly to a hopeful tune

something good will come to me soon

it probably won't be in the area of love

the choice is of the good Lord above

He gave me all that I need

so definitely I can succeed

I've got my own personal boombox

Tucked away in a safe spot in my heart

So that me and music never have to part