Golden Hearts | Rafe Cameron [1]

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June 30

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Rafe starts driving, and at first, we're silent, which doesn't last long. His eyes focus on the road.

"I don't understand why you've started hanging out with those Pogues," he says with a mad tone in his voice.

"We went there for Kiara," I say blankly, staring out through the large windshield in front of me, trying to avoid his gaze.

"I know you didn't just go there for Kiara. There's obviously something going on," he says angrily.

"I don't know what you want me to say," I say, sighing.

"I want you to stop hanging out with the wrong people," Rafe says louder.

"You have no right to decide what I do. Besides, they're not that bad once you get to know them," I say irritably, crossing my arms.

Rafe snorts, "Adeline, you're a Kook. You should live up to your reputation. Don't you understand what your parents will say if they find out about this?!"

"They won't find out," I say firmly.

"They will eventually find out, Addie, and you know it. I'm only saying this because I want to protect you," he says, this time I feel his gaze on me.

"No, I know it's not just that. I know you don't want me to be with them because you like to control me, and you hate them more than anything," I say with a raised voice.

"You have a point there. I hate them more than anything. But I wouldn't say it's to control you," Rafe says, clearly irritated.

"I don't even understand why we're doing this if you're going to interfere so much in my life. Everything was so much better before we started dating when I could do whatever I wanted in my life. Why do you even care? We're not really together! I could kiss someone else, and it wouldn't matter, because we're not really dating!" I almost scream out.

Rafe looks surprised at me, "Are you saying that nothing, absolutely nothing, has meant anything to you? Everything I've done for you. I did it so that you would feel more comfortable being with me this summer. I thought you were grateful.." Rafe says.

"I can't stop hating you," I say.

"And what do you mean you could kiss someone else? What have you done? Had sex with JJ Maybank or something?" This time it's Rafe who screams, and it makes me retreat a little.

"What makes you think that?!" I scream back at him.

"Because you seem to think it's completely normal to fool around with someone else while we're dating!" he shouts.

"But what if I am?! What does it matter when everything is just fake? Everything is a game as you said. None of this is real. It won't fucking matter in a few months!" I scream back, and I almost start to feel hoarse from all the shouting.

Rafe goes silent for a few seconds before he slams his hand hard against the steering wheel, causing the car to honk. I almost jump and start to feel uncomfortable with his aggression. I just want to get out of here. I don't want to be in the same car as him right now.

I open the car door and get ready to jump out while the car is moving, but Rafe grabs me with the hand closest to me. "What the hell are you doing?!" he shouts, making me close the door again.

I don't answer. I just ignore him.

"You might as well die if you act like that! Are you out of your mind?" he shouts. "And furthermore, if none of this means anything to you, why not just forget about it all? I don't need to do all these things for you anymore if that's what you want."

"I didn't say-"

"You did say it," Rafe interrupts.

We arrive at our houses, and Rafe barely stops the car before I get out. "I hate you," I say loudly before slamming the door shut and rushing into the house. Tears stream down my cheeks, and my throat hurts from all the shouting.

I hate my life.

I hate everything and everyone. 

When I enter the house, my dad looks up at me with a disappointed look. He doesn't even seem to react to my tears; instead, he grabs my arm tightly and drags me to the kitchen, where he hits me hard against the wall, making me cry out in pain.

"Where have you been?!" he says loudly, causing me to try to avoid his gaze. "Don't lie to me now! You've been with the Pogues!"

"And why does it matter? You already have a Pogue working for us here!" I say loudly.

"He got the boot because I realized my mistakes. Besides, what do you think you're doing? You can't hang out with the wrong people. If people see you, you'll ruin everything. Absolutely everything!" My dad shouts.

Where is Mom?

Where is Nathan?

"I'm so disappointed in you. I regret that your mom and I even had you. You know what, I actually hoped for another son. I never wanted a daughter because I know it only creates problems. Can you ever behave like your brother?" my dad screams in my face.

"You're so damn pathetic, Adeline Haley Morgans!" my dad shouts.

"Leave me alone! You have no right to control my life, and you know it!" I shout back.

"Yes, I do! Because I'm your father, and I can do whatever I want with you!"

"No, because I'm 18 years old!" I scream, trying to get away from him, but I can't because he raises his hand and hits me hard in the face before his grip on my wrist tightens, so hard that I can barely breathe.

"This is a happy house, we're happy here" my dad says while looking straight into my eyes. I hate that I got his green eyes and not my mom's blue eyes.

"Let go of me!" I scream again, and this time he releases me.

"You disgusting whore!" he yells before hurrying away from me, leaving me alone in the kitchen. I collapse on the floor, burying my face into my knees, and my tears stream down my cheeks. How can he do this to his own daughter?

Everyone hates me. Absolutely everyone. Will I ever be perfect enough? Because it doesn't seem like it. I don't seem to be enough for anyone, no matter how hard I try.

All I want is to be loved by someone.

By someone who deserves to love me.

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A/N: Soooo almost 1k reads that's crazy I love y'all so much I'm so happy!! Sorry that I didn't post any chapters in a few days but I've been so busy lately, so here you have 2 new chapters. If I have more time it'll be many chapters this weekend hopefully!! Love EL❤️