Golden Hearts | Rafe Cameron [1]

66

August 12

The past two days I've spent in Rafe's bed. I'm going to spend the coming week at the Cameron's. They have let me stay with them for the time being. My mom is so devastated that I just can't be with her, and I feel guilty for leaving Nathan with her, but he assured me at least a hundred times that he can manage on his own. So, I hope I can trust him.

Both Rafe and Sarah, even Wheezie, have tried to cheer me up by buying my favorite snacks, food, baking for me, putting on my favorite movies, and doing so much for me. I must say I am so grateful, but it's hard to enjoy anything when the whole family has just been destroyed.

Even Rose made my favorite food for me, and it was really kind of her. I am so thankful.

Sarah is out buying a pregnancy test. It's time for me to test myself, and even though I didn't want to get pregnant before, and I'm still young, I don't care anymore. If I'm pregnant, then I am. Maybe it's for the best. An excuse to drop out of college and live with Rafe. Let our children have the perfect father compared to mine.

Rafe is sitting next to me in his bed. He has his arm around me while I lie on his chest. He strokes his hand along my hair and talks about things. About everything to get me to think about something else. I lie quietly and listen to him. I try to think about other things.

"Do you think I'm pregnant?" I whisper, looking up to meet Rafe's honest gaze.

He looks down at me to meet my eyes. "I don't know, but I don't think so."

"Mhm," I say. "I really don't care anymore if I am pregnant."

"Not?" Rafe asks.

"No," I say.

"Neither do I, to be honest. I'm so ready to have a family with you even though we're young," Rafe says, running his fingers through my hair.

"You are the right one for me. It's you who should be the father of my children and no one else," I say.

"I love you," Rafe whispers and leans down to kiss me on the head.

"And I love you," I whisper back.

Someone knocks on the door, and Sarah comes in with a pregnancy test in her hand. She smiles when she sees us. I'm so nervous. What if I really am pregnant? It would be too much, and even though I know the best thing is that I'm not, everything feels hopeless right now.

"Here you go," Sarah says, handing me the test. I thank her and go to the bathroom to take the test.

A few minutes later, we are all waiting together for the result, and it starts to show negative quite quickly. I feel relieved but also disappointed. Of course, I want children, but I know I don't want them this early. Given everything that's happened recently, it would have almost been nice to have a child now. But maybe this is for the best.

"It's okay," Sarah says, giving me a hug. "If you really want children—"

"No, it's definitely fine. The best thing for us is to wait until we are actually ready," I say, smiling.

"I am so proud of you," Rafe says while giving me a kiss on the head, and I can't help but smile.

"I'm going to meet up with Topper, but I'll see you later," Sarah says before leaving me and Rafe alone again. I lean back in the bed again and feel a bit calmer now, even though my mind keeps going back to everything that happened two days ago. I can't believe my dad could do that. Does it mean I'll never see him again?

"What are you thinking about?" Rafe asks, putting his hand on my shoulder.

"Nothing, just...everything that's happened recently," I say, shrugging.

"I know, I'm sorry you have to go through all this. You really don't deserve it, Adeline," Rafe says.

"Mhhm," I say.

"I mean it, honestly, Addie. You deserve the whole world, you deserve even more than that. You deserve everything, you are the best thing that's happened to me. Trust me, I need no one else but you in my life to be happy," Rafe says.

"You are too sweet, Rafe," I whisper. "I need you in my life to be happy too."

Rafe smiles and leans in to kiss me, and I can feel his smile through the kiss. His cute giggle makes me smile even more through the kiss.

Can't it just stay like this?

Just me and Rafe....