Blaise's pov
It was fifth year, I've been struggling with food for around five months now, it's not that I didn't like myself, I always laid lots of girls and I knew I was good looking. But since my mother changed so many husbands that always made me feel like I wasn't enough, like I needed to be better always. I started to exercise a lot and eating very less. Things got out of control quickly, and I found myself crying in the bathroom at dinner time because I panicked in front of the plate. How pathetic. My friends didn't notice, not that they aren't good, they are always there for me, I love them, but I was good at lying, I got that from my mother as well. Then her head popped up from the doorframe
"Zabini?"
"Go away potter"
She didn't care, she came in anyways, I sighed, I didn't want anybody to look at me like this. She came closer and sat down next to me
"What's wrong?"
"That's none of your business, please go away"
"Well you clearly are in pain and I'd be really a bad person if I just walked away, besides I don't want you on my conscience if you ever tried something stupid"
I smiled at her joke but she went serious quickly
"You don't want to do that right?"
"No, besides, I am not in pain"
"Then why are you crying?"
"Am not"
"Well I guess you're eyes are about to deliver a baby cause man the water just broke"
I laughed, for the first time in days
"Wow I'be been here for what? 1 minute and I already got you smiling? You really are boosting my confidence "
I shook my head while looking up. She was one of a kind
"I-"
I started, I felt bad, I needed to explain it to someone
"Take your time, no rushing"
She said smiling softly
"Why are you here anyways? Aren't you at dinner?"
"I uhm had detention with snape and I was heading there now"
"Well you should go th-"
"That's none sense, I could use a break from my friends, but why aren't YOU at dinner"
She said pointing her finger at me. I looked down
"I couldn't eat"
I admitted with shame. I was afraid she would start laughing at me or worst, just walk away and never look at me again. But she hugged me from the side, placing her head on my shoulder while I laid mine on top of hers
"I get it, it happens sometimes to me too"
I looked down at her confused. Why? She had a drop dead gorgeous body
"It's not for the looks, I couldn't care any less, it's just my uncles, back at their house, they aren't really nice, they don't feed us always for punishment for some dumb shit or because they think I am not worth their food. Things got better here at hogwarts but, I kinda stick to that idea today as well"
I felt so bad for her, I knew her uncles weren't great but I never thought about how much of a shitty people they were, I placed my hand on her leg, strocking it softly. I then thought if they had ever laid a hand on her, I felt anger and sadness but I decided not to ask, maybe another time
"I just feel like I am not enough"
I admitted
"But you are, you are smart, funny, caring, sometimes a bit mean if you ask me but you are also a very handsome boy, you don't need to ever doubt yourself. And you know the best part? I would be here telling you this even if you weighted 100 pounds more. You are just fine the way you are Zaibini"
A year escaped my eye. Yes my water broke. This is the first time that I felt like someone actually cared. I smiled at her
"Blaise, call me Blaise"
"Only if you call me Lara, it's kind of tiring guessing if someone is calling me or Harry"
I laughed
"Thank you Lara, I needed that"
"Anytime Blaise, now let's get you to eat something, I don't want you to die"
She said getting and reaching out for me, I missed her warmth already
"I don't feel like eating in front of everybody"
"Then don't. Follow me"
She said as I took her hand, we were heading to the kitchens.
