Sometimes my mascara is clumpy and sometimes it's beautiful.
Based on other mascaras I've used, I still can't tell if it's the way I'm applying it or if the mascara just isn't meant for me.
Lately it's been kind of clumpy. I think I should put it in the memory box, move on, and get a new one, but it was the first one that made me feel pretty after the last, which destroyed my eyelashes completely.
The worst part is it belonged to someone else not terribly long ago, it is their perfect match therefore it will never look as beautiful on me. They no longer use it but I just can't stop thinking about how they must have looked.
I'm scared to let it go, I know there are other mascaras out there that could make me look amazing but none of them feel as right as this one does.
I spent so much time assuring people that I didn't like this mascara and thus that I didn't care about the clumps, but really I think I cared very deeply about it and cried over every clump.
My face is a graveyard of every lonely night, every argument, the absence of the mascara.
(This isn't about mascara.)
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Non-Fictionlife updates, sequel to the one on my old profile i guess || there will be some swearing, venting, and mentions of mental health topics. if this is triggering to you, please do not read.
