there was silence on the phone...the silence was deafening for alastor..until it wasn't
<"OH. MY. STARS!! THAT'S AMAZING ALASTOR! OH ALASTOR, THIS IS JUST AMAZING!! YOURE GONNA BE A DAD!!"> Rosie said in delight, he could hear her clapping and jumping up and down from over the phone...of course Rosie was excited... she always looked on the bright side of things
Maybe he would've rathered the silence
<"Yeah..."> Alastor sighed, rubbing the brim of his nose, Rosie just didn't get it, and no one would get it if she didnt...why do people get excited over this kind of thing? Alastor couldn't see the happy part of this. All he knew was he didn't want this...he didn't want any of this...but. hell, he knew very well the pride ring wasn't known for its medical care, so there's no way he could make this Go away like he wanted...he wanted it to go away...he didn't even want Vox's child! He-
<"alastor?"> he heard the female voice from over the phone, which snapped him out of his thoughts, blinking twice, he collected himself
<"what?...sorry I didn't hear you rosie...lost signal"> he tried to play it off, like he always did, he always played it off, he always brushed off his feelings
<"You sure?..I heard muttering"> she seemed concerned...alastor hated that...he hated worrying people...which is why he always forced a smile...no one could know his problems..but its hard to convey the 'everything's fine' facade with tone only, which is why he hated tech.
<"I'm sure dear!...I'm a bit tired though, it's pretty late, I'm gonna head to bed"> he said in the most collected tone he could conjure up.
<"yeah, it is pretty late, but I don't sleep much anyways, so head to bed, and if you need me, give me a call 'Kay alastor?"> she spoke in a concerned tone...he hated it...he hated causing people worry and concern...
<"I understand Rosie, I'll speak with you soon"> he quickly ended the call, pushing the rotary phone to the side his hands went to his hair
"...fuck..." he cursed at himself, biting his lip as to not start crying..
"Agh! I hate this...dumb...emotions!" He started tearing up as he cursed his hormones aloud...be hated them...he hated being vulnerable...he hated being in this fucked up place...all the people here were dicks...vox had only caught his heart through manipuation...and he hated that...he hated his dumb heart...he hated these irrational feelings...he hates everything...
He was grateful he was alone right now, he didn't want anyone seeing him like this...with how pathetic he looked, how Weak he was being. How emotional he was in the moment....
He was alone....
right?
《Sorry for the short chapter, its 2 am for me and I'm tired asf. Today's been shitty asf writing -alastor angst is how i cope- and I haven't even been able to vent to my partner because of how busy I've been, I also relapsed and luckily not many actually became cuts, but one of them became puffy so I had to show my mom, luckily she didn't think it was a SH cut so i was good, she said it was okay thank god and that I just needed some antibiotic gell called aquafore¿ (im dyslexic asf so im sorry i cant spell the bame of that shit even if in starring at the mf bottle -which im not-) on it (its over the counter where I live lol you can literally get it at a Wal-Mart or on amazon) sooo yeah, that's my reasoning for the short ass chapter love you pookies/p <333 :3》
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