𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃 ☹︎ 𝐑𝐀𝐘 × 𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐄 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑

☹︎ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 ☹︎

This, this was one of the rarest times where I actually slept in my bed a whole night. No staying up in the library studying. No trying to quickly sneak back to my room without Isabella knowing. No having only five minutes of rest.

A whole night. This was rare. Everyone would know.

I was suddenly jerked awake by a sudden loud gasoline, causing me to slowly turn on my other side in my bed when I heard the gasp with a tired look. Only to see Emma sitting up in her bed with wide eyes, trying to steady her breathing.

Emma ran her hands through her hair gently with wide eyes, trying her best to calm herself down until she stopped her movements when she felt my stare, causing her to turn and look at me.

Me and Emma had stared at each other for a few seconds before Emma then turned away and laid back down on her bed, covering herself with the blanket silently. I quietly sighed tiredly before also turning away in my bed, covering myself fully under my blanket, now in both warmth and darkness.

Guilt.

I slowly began to feel guilt, a feeling I didn't want to feel as I began thinking about what had happened last night, it was as if it were all just a nightmare, but it wasn't, I knew it wasn't.

I wish it was...

𝘊𝘰𝘯𝘯𝘺...𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘨...𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳...𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯 𝘪𝘧 𝘋𝘰𝘯 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵?

That thought had struck me hard like lightning...what would happen if Don discovered that Conny wasn't adopted by a family last night, but instead killed and sold off as food for demons?

I couldn't bare thinking about that possibility if Don discovered. I didn't want to think about the look, emotions, all the pain my best friend would feel.Conny was like a little sister to him, the little sister he never had...and now she is gone.

𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘩𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘦...𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘐'𝘮 𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘺...𝘮𝘢𝘺𝘣𝘦 𝘐'𝘮 𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘢 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘴𝘩 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘫𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦....

𝘕𝘰...𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘴 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭...

I let out a quiet huff through my nose as I began to hug my body tight under the blankets as I close my eyes shut tightly, trying my best to just shut my mind up and go back to sleep. I just wanted to go back to sleep. I just wanted to forget this reality. Ignore the horrible truth behind everything.

𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘥𝘰𝘦𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘨𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺...𝘐 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘰 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥...𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘐 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥...𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵? 𝙏𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝘪𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘯?

★☹︎★☹︎★☹︎★☹︎★

Me sleeping a full night's sleep wasn't the only thing that I've done that was rare, for once, I've decided that I would actually take a bath, and during the morning, I need a place to think for a bit. I ignored my siblings states as I walked over to the male washrooms.