third time's a charm

A THANK YOU!

Hey everyone!

Another fanfic down! First off, big thanks to each of you for your patience and understanding. Sometimes I can't write unless I'm really feeling the story, you know?

So, this one was a request from a friend who's a massive BrightWin fan. She wanted me to write something inspired by her own heartbreaks, as she's been diagnosed with philophobia - yeah, fear of commitment! I didn't even know that was a thing 🙃 Anyway, she ended up letting go of the right person, who coincidentally became my friend too, and he went and got hitched to someone else...

So, I mashed up her story with some fantasy elements as she requested, and voila! She seemed to like it, even though it was a real struggle to write 😅

And hey, about that pronoun mix-up, my bad. I really dropped the ball there and I'm sorry for any confusion it caused. I won't make any excuses but I promise to try my best to be more careful in the future! 🥺🙏🙇

Now, let's talk about that scene. It was a tough one to write, as I wanted to capture Bright's inner turmoil. He's caught between showing care for Lilian and being true to his own feelings. It was a pivotal moment for me since I wanted to show the differing emotions in that scene.

The narrative describes a moment of intense emotional conflict for the character Bright and even for Lilian. He finds himself in a situation where his actions seem to express love and affection for her, but internally, he knows that his feelings don't align with the romantic gesture she's making towards him.

The phrase "He was speechless, unable to utter a single word yet his eyes were gentle" suggests that Bright is at a loss for words, indicating the depth of his emotional turmoil. His gentle eyes might indicate his care and concern for Lilian, even though he knows he can't reciprocate her romantic feelings.

The subsequent description of Lilian being lost in his eyes and initiating a kiss further highlights the complexity of the moment. Bright may feel conflicted because he doesn't want to hurt Lilian, yet he knows he cannot return her romantic affection in the same way.

The line "It was probably the most beautiful kiss SHE could offer. All of her heart was poured into it. Yet Bright knew this was wrong...he cared for her. But he didn't love her that way..." encapsulates Bright's internal struggle. Despite the beauty of the moment, he knows deep down that his feelings for Lilian don't match hers. He cares for her deeply, but he doesn't feel romantic love for her. This realization creates a conflict between his desire to spare her feelings and his need, to be honest with himself and with her. Not to mention that Bright knew about Win's heartbreak too and the fact that his best friend was in the same situation shed light on what it's like when you're the one rejecting the affection.

I debated giving it a happy or sad ending, but ultimately, I wanted to give the characters the happy ending they deserved. As for the controversy over that pronoun slip-up? Yeah, that was unexpected! 😆 My editor isn't very strict with me in terms of fanfic, she knows the work is for free unlike published materials but I promised to deliver quality work and I got a little careless so she gave me a little scolding, after laughing on my behalf 🥴 But seriously guys, I truly am VERY SORRY. TBH, that mistake will haunt me for the rest of my life 😅 It gave me soooo much ANXIETY when you started hating on the character I worked so hard to build and I even contemplated taking this down 😭.

Anyway, thanks for sticking with me through it all. Onward to the next project! 🚀

PS: I handed the manuscript over to my friend! 😘🥰😉---She LOVES it but wanted me to take it down due to the negative feedback, but I assured her it's alright since it's my fault anyway. 😆