My mask was off. Only two places where I can take my mask off egeset, and summers one of them. But it soon ended. School started as soon as it came back. Putting on a mask and pretending to be happy and cheerful isnt my style. My family and I dont get along which makes it worse. I know that I should respect my family but when they call me names and make fun of me I just dont feel like I fit in. I looked at my arms. A clean slate. A place where I could express myself.*trigger*.
I raised the knife to my arms. I started carving a heart. Very ridged because it hurt. But the pain was worth it. My masterpiece was done. I made little cuts on my other arm that bled very throughly. It was fall so Its still kindof warm.
School. I left my mask at home. My tank top with my cuts on my arm showing. People gasped as I walked in the room. The teacher hurried over to me and asked,
"If this is marker then go wash it off in the bathroom or else I want you to go to the gudience counciler."
I went to the bathroom and sat there till P.E. I was born beautiful, and I knew it but people would call me a hoe and a slut because people would say that I went from boy to boy. I've never had a boyfriend before. When The bell rang for P.E I was happy. When I got to the P.E room everyone had gone outside except for him. Terence, my crush. I looked away and tried to make my way to the looker room. I felt someone grab my cut which it started to bled.
"Oww, stop let go!"
"You really cut yourself?!"
It was him.
"Why are you even in here. P.E class is outside."
He looked at me and hugged me. I didnt know what to do. He was dating one of the pretty girls in school and she would rip my head off if she saw him hugging me.
"Please, dont do this to yourself. It hurts to know that your doing this."
He grabs my hand and leads me down stairs. He goes into the equipment room and grabs a sharp object, and makes a small slice on his wrist.
"Stop what the hell are you doing!"
"Every time you cut I will to."
"You dont have a reason!"
"My reason is you."
He looks at me. This has to be a dream. But he is weak. He will obey someone elses command.
"Terence what are you doing, we need partners and your not out there."
Veronica. She made roomers about me.
"Ohh is the slut trying to get in your pants! Honestly Lina you should just die already!"
I heard laughs down the hall. Many people joined her saying I should just kill myself. I ran out of the building and to my house. I may get in trouble but thats ok. It will be the last time anyway.
