FLOWER WORK [COMPLETED]

GUILT

officer: tell us! why did you do this all? 

???: you think I did everything just to confess like pussy?

officer: you-

officer 2: stop! it's enough!

 officer: but sir-

officer 2: it's ok. this guy's family is here to meet him. let them meet then we continue without holding back. 

officer: ...ok...

officer 2: you better be prepared for the worst after meeting your family. 

???: go ahead and try me. 

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 I sipped the familiar bitter flavour of coffee from my mug while staring at the view from my balcony.

It was a peaceful day, I suppose. Definitely not a nice day; perhaps a bad day, but certainly peaceful.

As if not liking the tranquillity that surrounded me, my stomach thundered loudly, causing me to groan in frustration.

Feeling hungry made me question when was the last time I had a real meal, and that's when the memories came flooding back.

It was with everyone else in the small diner. That means it's been two weeks since I ate anything properly.

it's not like I don't wanna eat. it's just that I can't. 

no matter what, whenever I try eating, guilt flushes over my body making me lose my appetite. with the guilt comes in the memory of Jin hyungs cold, pale face while he bled from his abdomen, coughing up blood soon after. that memory just increases the guilt and I feel like throwing up everything. thus it's better I don't eat anything.  

Sejin Hyung has been visiting me almost every day and forces me to eat something for which I'm grateful but after a few bites, the guilt cycle repeats. so just to convince him I eat a bit. only enough to keep me alive and not throw up. 

sighing I look at the cloudless sky feeling pathetic and pitying myself. 

I look at the door, frowning when I hear someone entering the house. 

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officer: you're now going to confess everything?

???: yes...

officer:(sigh) should've done that since the beginning but I guess your mother talked you into it, huh? very well, we'll start with your name. everything you say now will be recorded and you cant change anything later so you better say the whole truth ok?

???: ok...

officer: good. now start. 

???: my name is Gang-seok. age 28. male. blood group A+.

officer: do you know why you've been arrested, Gang-seok?

gang-seok: for attempting murder. 

officer: not just murder, gang-seok. stalking, threatening, breaking in on others' property, using fake identification AND then attempting to murder. Now, explain and confess why you did this all. what were your reasons, and motives? and do you have any accomplices?

gang-seok: I did everything alone. from the very beginning to the very end...

officer: ok... but why?

gang-seok: about that...

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