Hold on (Poppy Playtime College AU)

Chapter 2: New addition

Y/N Pov:

I haven't dreamed anything for a few weeks now, I don't know if it has anything to do with my ability. Or maybe because I just can't fall asleep normally anymore, I listen to music until late at night and then can't fall asleep. But I bought some sleeping pills a while ago and they really help. I don't dream anything and wake up suddenly in the morning...'But at least I can sleep'.

And with that I wake up again, startled slightly by my alarm clock, but then remember my miserable life and that today is the first day of the second semester. I sit up slowly and reach straight for my phone. After a quick facial recognition, I see my face on the display, circles around my eyes and a tired look. I'm about to open WhatsApp but see the time... I have to hurry

I jump out of bed and stand in the middle of my room. There's something lying around everywhere, whether it's packaging waste, books or something else. 'I haven't read a single one'. I stand in front of my white wardrobe, the only partially clean thing in my room. I just grab a gray zip up hoodie and matching pants and quickly put them on in front of my closet. I don't have a mirror in my room, 'I don't like to see myself' It just reminds me of how I look and how I wish I couldn't stand in front of the mirror in the first place. I turn around again and pick up my bag next to my bed, looking at it lightly on my back. I quickly grab my phone and put on my headphones, but now I really have to go.

I walk slowly through the living room, just hoping not to meet anyone. I'd rather be alone... and not talk to anyone. I walk quickly into the small white kitchen, go to ten points to get to a high cupboard and take out a small glass. I take it in my hand and quickly put it under the tap, I want to feel it again. I concentrate on the handle of the water...Slowly it is pulled up as if by magic and water flows into my glass. I try to use my 'telekinesis' at least once a day, Karasu told me, why? He didn't tell me.

I feel my parched throat refreshed by the water flowing slowly down my throat and I look at the clock hanging above the kitchen. I quickly put the glass down again and run to the door, open it quickly and without even looking back I walk out...

It's pleasant, but my body is really cold. I've been thinking the whole time about the class that would take place today, after all there's always a small meeting at the beginning of the semester...I hope Karasu is in the same group I fiddle around a bit nervously on my phone and check if a plan has already been uploaded, after all I'm in the year group for some reason... Because I can't find a plan I should listen to music first...

('Without you I can not breathe... I can not sleep i can't...')

I walk slowly and try to walk straight, my feet are starting to hurt and I really have to be careful not to get a cramp right now. I look at the trees along the road and wonder if there will ever be anything else here. 'I don't think so'. I can already see the main road in the distance and it will take me just under ten minutes to get to the bus stop.

('come back...')

Shit, I have to be really careful now and can't afford to make any mistakes. Otherwise I'll just be thrown out without anything and that'll be it. I won't be accepted anywhere like this... After all, I missed half a year and have such a bad report card that even missing the whole year would be better. But then what? If I don't work anywhere and have no more tasks...in my whole life*. I think if I don't make it through the year and get kicked out I will do it... I have no point in living anymore anyway.