The Heiress of time

Chapter Four

Celeste's pov

I might have told a lie to the kingdom about me losing my ability yet somehow I still have it under control since I learned how to harness the power efficiency even though I wasn't able to know what other powers I have which doesn't seem to scare me because I for sure know that I was meant to die unaided death without having no one else by my side beside the fact that half of the men were intimidated by me or repulsed by me, to say the least because I was different from them that they don't see me as a human being, however, I have come to terms with who I am so I wasn't going to sure as heck force anyone else to marry me especially when I was all that I need here standing right in front of me as I stared at myself in the mirror looking back at me with a great deal of determination to lead my kingdom to victory.

"Sometimes, I think it hard to lose sight of who we really are and I don't trust anyone else, grandma." I whispered these words out loud to myself as a tear dripped down my face but not wanting to seem weak I wiped them away from my eyes.

Theses same four doors were all empty until I heard someone rushing right over here to me to deliver the message that something was wrong in my childhood home when I got this sick feeling in the back of my throat hoping that my parents were going to survive their illness also the looks on the pager face was full of sadness in their eyes not knowing what to believe as I had forgotten to breathe because none of them were saying anything to me about my parents causing my anxiety to get worse. I've already lost too many people in my life trying to hold back my tears and listening to these eleven-fourteen words henceforth this was it for me I was just going to live a long life even though I had lost all of my family being the only heir to the throne.

"We regret to inform you that both of our parents are on the verge of death and wish to see you," said the courtiers.

Numbness.

All I could feel was numbness at this moment not knowing what to say or how to feel. It was all too much for me to handle, not to mention that one of my favourite people in the castle doesn't seem to trust my friend Brett. I don't know why it has to be so cruel to me that it takes everyone who I care about away from me, I didn't even want to become Queen so quickly but I wasn't left with any choice because you can choose who you are, what family you are born into and be yourself or otherwise, people might take advantage of me.

The horsemen, the carriage and my guards were all surrounding areas of me outside to protect me during my ride towards my childhood home then once I arrived there I immediately rushed upstairs to see my parents the former king and queen lay in their bed as I was watching them it made me feel so hopeless all of a sudden I want to cry, to scream, to punch something or anything that would let me release this insufferable pain. I never felt so broken in my entire life,

"My dearest daughter Celeste, I'm sorry for all the pain that we have caused by not being strong enough to fight for you" my father coughed rather loudly choking on the air, "we just want you to be safe or otherwise, we might lose you in your sleep as a child." Both of my parents were in tears crying and begging for my forgiveness as I could erase all of those dark haunted memories, of course, none of it was ever going to go away, was it?

My eyes shifted from my father to my mother who was look grief-stricken there was no spark in her green eyes also I didn't have many memories of both of them to be quite frank, all I got from them were letters and a cheap attempt of buying my love were extremely expensive gifts as my mother said: "it would be our last dying wish of you forgive us for sending you away from your life here." she held onto my hand with her cold blue ones that they were so close to tasting death itself.

I'm not a heartless monster but I shut my eyes for a brief moment before opening them again, and then I nodded my head pushing my feelings aside for the sake of my parents telling them that I do accept their apology for doing this to me all in all, they were trying to protect me from the scrutiny of the world.

"It's okay you can now close your eyes and don't fight the awaiting harsh light that is calling you."I encouraged them by accepting the reality of their fate with tears quietly rolling down my eyes.

A dynasty once build-out of stones yet, but their old rulers died so I guess that leaves me to be the last man standing as my heart starts fracturing into little tiny pieces on the ground right now, nonetheless, the cruel stillness in the room caused by the death of a loved one made me feel hollow that from now on my only main focus was on my humble nations how to become a better leader for my people who need a structured figure to look up to in their time of need too.

Today, I was supposed to be the only one who was publicly going to tell everybody the same news and then deliver the speeches on Thursday morning claiming that my parents were lifeless regarding every single issue that was wrong with my hometown all by myself later on today coping with a loss of an important family member. Other people who keep coming and going in my life, there was no guarantee or constant in my life anymore, but I kept on doing what I have done best, simple just surviving and no longer living like I was supposed to now.

The last of my family lines were me.

"Your Highness, I heard the news, is any of it true?" asked horrified petra.

Simply i nodded my head as I started staring at the walls for as long as I possibly could not wanting to take about it and my cousin Bellatrix my favorite cousin out of all them came running into my room to hug me immediately after she had gotten the news from a pigeon that i sent out to her as we spent the night the night together having sleepover in the castle like we used to do when we were three years old before anyone else figure that i have these power in the palm of my hands now we were blood sister who promise to be there for each other at a young age until we gotten ripped apart by the reality of life itself by the so cruel crutches but she promises that she will always come back for me no matter what even if it takes seventeen years.

The war between the soldiers and the most dangerous forces of naturals were those who posses such complex powers somehow i was going to find the missing pieces of my puzzles one way or another even if it takes whatever is left inside me to find it because there must be a clue or a reason why i posses such powers to create a new world or destroy it with the touch of my hands like no other. I couldn't help it but to notice that i had my father eyes as i look at myself in the mirror whereas everything else about my appearance look exactly identical from my mother except for my personality came from the hidden pain of being abandoned by my parents these scars may run so deep as my family line blood yet, i couldn't shut out the pain any longer than i already was when i was slowly bleeding on the inside feeling like i was drowning in the ocean of my own, tears all because i felt that i wasn't good enough daughter for them, somewhere along the lines i learn to never craved for other people validations of me or i might be highly disappointed with the reactions which made the queen who i am today.

"Bella,and Petra,yes, the news you must have heard by now was most certainly true." I choked on the painful words that were still lodged in my throat, closing my eyes for a brief second not wanting to seem weak. I sadly smile at them.

They both embraced me with a hug while i was planning quietly how to run a kingdom all by myself and i must undergo every single training to make me be , feel and seem stronger to learn how to protect myself from such unfortunate things even though everyone might view me in a different ways that i didn't really cared about at this moment i had more important events also decision to make to improve the living crisis of my people or something like that.

Later on, this night i had a plan to escape this castle to go on a natural walk next week to help me think more clearly than staying the castle made me feel lonely since none of the world greatest medicine could ever solve my problem and then i heard the news that there was one of the suitor who was willing to put my past behind him was called Fabien, he come from a wealthy well brought up family as i picked up his portrait that shows all of his feature including his white blond curls tossle on his head, oceans blue eyes, a sincere smile upon his face and according to my cousin Bellatrix he height was six foot even i do not know how she basically know rumors about him. As it turned out I was meant to meet him next Monday to see him in my high towers. Oh i can't wait to see him but what i don't understand was why a lady with high essence would ever need a man for making all the important stuff when i was perfectly capable of ruling this kingdom alone as long as i ever shall live even if it is tradition well then maybe someone should change it and that someone should be me.

It is such a cruel, cruel, very cruel world.