Harry's Point Of View.
[Y/N], She was perfect. I loved every ounce of her. she was honestly the one thing you would look for in a girlfriend even a wife. I've thought about marrying her for a while now. There was just one thing that was wrong. Leanne, My girlfriend before [Y/N]. It was out of pure innocence though When I met [Y/N] I didn't think it would turn into a relationship When I was with [Y/N] I forgot about Leanne. I forgot about the whole world. We had the strongest connection between us. I loved her from the beginning. It was so effortless like I didn't have to try at all it came natural like we were meant for each other. And I strongly believed that.
When It got serous between us I didn't have the heart to break up with Leanne. It was never on my mind until Leanne wanted more from me as a boyfriend but I couldn't. I wanted to be with [Y/N]. So Here I was Leading Leanne on. Playing mind games with her. I couldn't help but to feel disgusted with my self. Every time we kissed I would think of [Y/N]. I truly loved her But how could I be doing this to her?
I Had to tell [Y/N] Everything. Even if it meant risking our relationship
I made my way to Leanne's to Brake it off with her
* 2 hours later *
Leanne didn't take it well but now was the time to tell [Y/N] I was dreading the moment to come but had to tell her it wouldn't be faithful to our relationship. If we would even have a relationship after this.
So here goes nothing.
I knocked on [Y/N]'s door hesitantly. She opened with a inviting smile and a warm hug. I loved her hugs. I didn't say a single word. I walked her over to the couch and took both her hands in mine. A sign of worry wiped over my face and she obviously noticed. she frantically smothered me in questions. I ignored them but i quickly spoke up "Listen [Y/N] i really Love you and i need to tell you something Okay, I-had-a-girlfriend-when-we-were-dating." I said without taking a single breath. I watched her face go from a settle tan color into a dark pale . She looked over a me. Her face looked so broken and lifeless. "So I-I was-s j-just a toy to y-you?" she said barley above a whisper. Tears Heavily flooding her cheeks."Harry, I think you should go." She said with a lifeless expression falling over her face once again. She closed her eyes trying to push back the cries but they kept coming down even harder that before. I coulden't bear to look at her knowing i would cry. I pulled my self up feeling the tears prickly at the sides of my eyes and left.
I practically through my self into my car letting the tears flow down my face. I deserved this. I did it to my self.
I ran into my apartment not caring who saw me.I threw the door shut. i didn't know what to do with my self so I just sat in the corner clutching my knees shaking slightly with each breath. All the pain and heart ache came washing through my head and was all I could think about. But I had to wonder How much pain did I cause her? It made me realize she was just a mistake. But a mistake I couldn't live without. Not even if I tried. I couldn't bear it . Her presence on me has became my addiction. A Guilty pleasure that i'd became so fond of. But I never thought my love would hurt her, but it turns out it killed her. My love turned your once large Bright colored loving red heart into a tiny black hole that couldn't love anymore but simply pump oxygen into your veins for all eternity. Then it dawned on me. My love killed her. I killed her.
