The One 【Tordtom/Tomtord】

You Have Got To Make An Effort

'It's never gonna go away, is it..?' Tom thinks to himself, he's tried stopping but it was just so impossible, these urges kept flooding in, his mind was consumed and replaced by a self-destructive machine.

Alcohol stopped working on him like it used to. It felt like he was trapped somewhere, where there was an illusion of leaving but you just walk back to where you started. In the same place, always at the beginning just because you're too weak to stop it.

If he can't fix this how can he ever be happy? Does he even want to be better? This feeling already feels so familiar and nice, but he knows it's not good.

Just then Tom hears the front door open, Edd comes in first through the door and walks into the kitchen where the TV's light projects a shadow. To his utter disappointment, Tom is drinking yet again.

He quickly walks over and yanks the bottle from Tom's hand, "Tom.. I.." he stops, looking straight at Tom "I'm disappointed in you" Edd murmurs, looking away from Tom in shame and disgust. It looks as if he's about to cry, but why? That doesn't make sense for Edd. He's always so cheerful.

- with Tord -

After waking up Matt, Tord walks in the house and hears voices from the kitchen, he walks over and sees Edd holding a bottle of smirnoff, and Tom in front of him, probably a little buzzed.

Tord sighs and walks to Edd, putting his hand on his shoulder, "Edd, what's going on?" Those few words remind Edd of something from the past, he hands Tord the bottle and sighs, "I'm tired, let's forget today even happened" Edd says bitterly to everyone, his arms raised a bit passively.

Everyone is quiet and looking each other, not knowing what to say in this awkward tension. Matt had just arrived inside and looked at Edd a bit surprised, yet scared. 'What's wrong with him!?' Tord thought bluntly.

He reached out for Tom's arm but as he did so, nothing came to his touch, Tom was gone. Guessing the brit went to his room, Tord walked over to his. Leaving Matt alone to ponder with what he'd just heard.

- with Matt -

"Well fuck" Matt says hugging himself, everyone is gone, disappeared into their rooms as the night kept moving. Matt sighs, 'Maybe forgetting today happened isn't such a bad idea' he thinks before walking into his room.

Mirrors and pictures of himself are placed and decorated, but he walks up to a picture in particular.

"Where'd the years go?" Matt asks, talking to himself. The picture of him and his friends as kids, well except for Tord.., just in primary school, so happy and full of life. He lightly traces the frame with his finger. Then he clicks his tounge and sighs.

Flashback

Edd is talking in the playground with his friends, he's on the swing and is laughing, the teacher watching everyone and smiling.

"You know what would be a crazy fun idea?" Edd says laughing and looking at both of his friends, Matt quickly responds "Playing in the mud with water guns?" He giggles, but Edd shakes his head, Tom too busy coloring to pay attention. Edd stops swinging and says "I think we should live together"

Then both boys look at Edd, confused and doubtful, "Can we even do that? I mean, we're just nine, Edd, what if we stop being friends by then?" Questioned Tom, Edd just rolled his eyes and continued swinging, "You're so depressing, Tom"

Matt laughs at that, but Tom doesn't, "Lame" he says and continues drawing.

End of flashback

Matt puts the picture down where it was and goes over to his bed, he breathes in heavily to calm himself down and eventually go to sleep.