ORGANIZASYON 1: LOVED BY THE MASOCHIST [BxB]

Chapter 4

JHAIL

Knov parked his car at the garage. Nauna na akong pumasok sa loob ng bahay, kailangan kong magshower to get myself together. Hindi na yata puma-function ng mabuti ang utak ko kaya parang naiirita ako. Maybe the cold shower will help me rinse whatever thought that keeps running inside my head.

Kumuha ako ng towel at robe. Plano kong kumain ng late para iwasan muna si Reve. Hindi ko gusto ang nararamdamang pagkairita sa kanya. Kailangan ko munang ayusin ang sarili para hindi ako magmumukhang weirdó kapag kaharap ko na siya. I need to restrain this unreasonable emotions that keeps on pesteríng me.

I opened the door of the shower room and entered, it's quite large and spacious. In-on ko ang shower at napapikit sa sarap ng epekto ng pagdaloy ng tubig mula sa hibla ng buhok ko patungo sa aking mga paa.

"Ang daming nangyayari kahit ilang araw palang ako dito." kausap ko sa sarili. "But my goal of knowing Reve more, and wanting him to know me.. it's as blurry as vague."

Inihilamos ko ang basang kamay sa basang mukha. I said that.. "I love my life the way it was" pero heto ako ngayon at sinusubukang gawing komplikado ang routine ng buhay ko. When I was in Russia, my routine is always waking up early to go to school, entering every classes and then go to the library to eat my lunch. I don't have friends. I choose to lay low and unnoticeable. In that way, my life is simple yet peaceful. Wala akong ibang iniisip, walang gumugulo sa isip ko.

I rinsed myself and then grabbed the towel. Pinunasan ko ang katawan ko bago isuot ang robe. Lumabas ako ng bathroom habang tinutuyo ko ang buhok gamit ang towel.

I slumped into the bed. I like Reve. Gusto ko sya. But why am I being like this? Bakit naiirita ako sa kanya magmula nang malaman ko ang sinabi ni Ashton kanina? It's strange, it's irrational.

I'm in the middle of my thoughts when the ringing of my phone broke the silence of the room. Walang gana ko itong pinulot at agad na nagliwanag ang mukha ko nang makita kunh sino ang caller. I enthusiastically pressed the answer button and put the phone on bed near my ear.

"Eyy! kuya!!" hindi ko mapigilan mapangiti. I missed him, hindi ako sanay na hindi ko sya nakikita sa loob ng isang linggo.

"You sounds like you're doing well there huh." sa bosis palang niya ay alam ko nang nakangiti sya ngayon. I never saw my brother smiled to anyone but me, kaya nasasayangan ako sa expensive nyang ngiti dahil walang nakakakita nito ngayon.

"I'm doing well here, thanks to you kuya! I also have a friend now." masayang pagkukwento ko. It's been five days nang huli kaming nakausap over the phone.

"Oh really?" he sounded like he didn't believe it.

"You doubt it don't you?" busangot na tanong.

"HAHAHA Of course lil bro. You who doesn't like attention is now having a fri--"

"His name is Ashton Sandoval. He's great, he's kind. He is also a very good friend, and by that, I really meant it." seryosong sabi ko na may halong pagmamayabang. "You still don't believe me?" it's now my turn to laugh at him.

"Gonna call you later. I need to run an investigation with someone I just know." para itong nagmamadali at agad akong binabaan ng tawag. What's with him? May problema ba sa organization?

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Napatingin ako sa pinto ng malawak kong kwarto. I'm not really into large and spacious rooms, I felt lonely no matter how beautiful and organized the room is.

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Bumangon ako saka tinungo ang pinto at pinagbuksan iyon.

"Hey." Reve greeted.