Different person, same Ladybug 🐞

Chapter 18: To stay with him

School was, like I said, easy as bread (hehe 😊).

I guess the akumatizations aren't every day, seeing one didn't happen today. Either that, or I scared Hawkmoth's balls off. 

I'd prefer the latter, but I'm fine with both. 

I fell down onto my bed and looked at my hands. Pale and smooth, the complete opposite of my own tan hands with enough scars and calluses. I don't know if I can fit more. Well, I didn't. I'm probably dead or gone in my world. 

I stared at the ceiling and sighed. Speaking of my world, wonder what Als is doing. Did she do her homework? Is she watching Miraculous like she normally does? 

I counted the days I've been here. Exactly 59 days, 10 hours, 18 minutes and... 45 seconds. I smirked; I am so smartness.

 The smirked dropped when I wondered if I'm getting too comfortable here. 
What if I won't be able to leave this world.
What if I become too attached.
What if...
What if Adrien doesn't...

Turned in my bed, no. My feelings haven't gotten that far, has it? It's only been a couple months and I'm not the type to fall fast. It's always slow, starting with...

Admiration

I immediately sit up, accidentally hitting my head on the ceiling.

Ouch

I rub my head and look up to the ceiling, where I've taped up pictures with a Polaroid camera Mari got for her 8th birthday from her grandma. A picture of Chat and me falls into my palm. It was after our little talk, and I asked him if I could take a picture to savor the moment. 

I decided after that talk, I should savor my life. Even if it wasn't my own to begin with.

I stare at the boy's shy smile and a smile of my own grows on my face. And are those... butterflies? In my stomach?

I giggle and cover my mouth. Wait, what?

What?

Just me, giggling at my crush.

My crush.

Chat Noir.

Adrien Agreste.

The person I planned to manipulate and leave...

I feel cold water dripping down my cheeks. 
Wait, that isn't water. It's my tears.

I'm crying. Why am I crying? I should be happy, I should be overjoyed, I should be... I should be devastated. Falling for a person I am bound to leave? And what about my family? My mom, my sister, my dad... I'm just going to leave them for a smile made of gold?

But... I want to stay.

To stay with Alya.

To stay with this mom.

To stay with this dad.

To stay as the main character.

...And maybe, just maybe. To stay with him.