Heeseung entered Jungwon hospital room , who was lying on the bed without any care about in the world .
Heeseung pulled a chair close to the bed and sat down .
Hee took jungwon hand in his own and spoke softly ," it's been a week "
Hee leaned against the side of the bed and asked ," you don't like sleeping to much na , then why r u sleeping for so long ?" .
Hee glanced around the room , it had started became a second room to him now .
The boys were not talking to him properly anymore . He wanted to reach out , but guilt kept holding him back .
He knew the account was not in his hand, but he couldn't shake the thought that if he had just crossed the road more carefully , none of this might have happened .
Heeseung softly caressed jungwon hand ," I should be the one in this bed , not you "
First, the issue with mia , and now this , the boys were very angry with him .
He dunno what he was going to do , "feeling so lonely won " his voice was so soft , as if he was fed up with everything .
" I don't talk about my family much , right ?" He moved the jungwon's bangs away from his eyes .
" Can I talk about them ? "
Heeseung took a deep breath," when I was born for like eight years, everything was ok . Mom and dad were so sweet towards me , but I adored hyung more than anything .
His voice flattered as he continues , "parents were sweet, but I always felt something was off with them . It was confirmed when I turned ten .
Dad would caress by cheeks and will say one word " same " , i never understand what it meant , but it always made mom angry .
She wouldn't look at my face for months , and I never know why - did my face seems ugly to her ? I begged her to look at me, but she wouldn't budge" .
Heeseung tears begin to roll down on his cheek as he forced a sad smile , "Everything changed as I grow older . Mom started scolding me for every small little thing and dad wouldn't support me nor stop her "
" My only source of happiness at home was jk hyung . He was like a pillar to me, but I realised he couldn't be there for me forever . I don't want him to fall in my mess because mom and dad seemed bitter towards me , not him "
Hee softly caress jungwon cheek ." That's when you guys come in to my life like an angels . You guys brought light to my dark world . Some day , it's so hard to even breath . I've stayed optimist but for how long won ?, don't I feel hurt too ?does every one think that my heart is made up of stone ? " .
Hee bite his lip from choking himself from his own cry ," it's fucking hurt won"
" They're not talking to me , won. They are completely ignoring me like a stranger . First they didnt believe in mia matter now this " he laughed bitterly
" They'd be fine if I were in this bed instead of you right ?"
Heeseung closed his eyes but tears were flowing freely ," Yk ,what hurts more? This morning , sunoo called me beta but it didn't came like a sweet call it came like he is was disgusted by it
When I was presented , my suffering were doubled , I ensured everything every single insult which thrown at me , but one thing make me happy that you guys have accepted me for who I am " he wiped his tears
" But now, I feel so down won. I can't think anything properly , I can't sleep . When ever I close my eyes , everything that happened in my life hunts me . I can't take it anymore won. Please , come back."
Heeseung sniffled ," they're making me feel like I don't belong here"
Heeseung wailed," how can they change in just a week ? - how ? "
" Please wakeup won " with that he slept while laid his head on jungwon tummy and drifted off to sleep .
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" Oh my god what a cute view " said the tall one
The smaller one rolled his eye at that , "respect the single, please , thank you " .
The taller one totally ingnored him , still cooing over the couple infront of him .
Hearing the sound , heeseung woke up from his slumper and rubbed his eyes lightly to clear his view .
Took a turn and saw beomgyu and I .N standing there with something in their hand
" What r u guys doing here ? " heeseung asked .
Both of them ignored his question and place the things they brought on the table .
Heeseung watched their every move.
Beomgyu handed him a sandwich , while I.N handed him juice
Who took them without questioning ..... how could he , when they both had blank stare which he know very well if he didn't accept what they offered, it wouldn't end good for him .
They both could see the redness and puffiness in his eye but didn't question about it .
They knew what he was going through. All they could do was support him and be there for him, the rest was in his hand .
While they were chatting, the doctor entered the room .
He came over and checked on jungwon .
The Dr announced jungwon condition is good and he might recover soon ," don't be gloomy , every thing will be fine" he said , patting heeseung's shoulder reassuringly .
for some reason, the Dr felt like heeseung was someone he know, but he couldn't pinpoint who was it .
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His friends left after spending an hour with him.
" I can take over from here " a voice said from behind .
Heeseung knew who it was and bit his lip . He wanted to stay, but he knew he couldn't . Without a word he stood up silently and walked out .
From his peripheral view , sunoo saw heeseung leave and took the place where heeseung had been sitting .
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Heeseung wandering aimlessly through the hospital .
Not paying attention to where he was going and bumped into someone .
The person he bumped into caught him before they both could land to the floor
" Heeseung ? "
Hearing the familiar voice , he looked up at the person who called his name .
Heeseung blinked his eyeslashes a few time
"yeji noona ? " .
