Sometimes It's You...

Once upon a time
All I had were my thoughts—

I had dreams
To tell stories
That could heal people
In hopes my voice
Would help the unseen.

I don't know what happened
To the person I used to be.

I guess the more I got older
The further my passions
Got away from me.

The more life I lived
The more I was surrounded
By people
That wanted to snuff out my light.

I never expected to be hypocritical
Dimming other lights
Trying to find my own again...

Even if I don't mean to
I know
The damage unhealed trauma
Can cause the ones you love,

So it's up to me to sit alone
Reflect and unpack
All the harm
my own trauma has caused.

I see
Now,
Unless I make
My self inflicted pain
A priority to manage,
I'll always be the one at fault
For my life's unnecessary damage.

I have a new dream
To make peace
With my mistakes
And who I am...

I just need
to step out of my own way,
And believe that I can.