Release Me From My Tears

1: Guilt

It was just an ordinary day. I was walking home from school with a group of friends. As Lucille had turned the corner I waved good bye. I continued on my way home when Cole, of course, jumps out of the bushes and screamed, I jumped.

"Cole knock it off!" I growled as I slapped him across the face.

"Ouch, what was that for!" he whimpered.

"Don't ever do that again, it scared me." I argued as I turned to walk away. He grabbed my wrist and spun me around on my heels.

"That's the point, doll," he cooed "come on I have to show you something really cool."

"Where are we going?" I asked Cole as we were walking into the cemetery.

No response.

He was gone.

He left me alone in the cemetery! I had to walk home all by myself in the cold rainy weather! I was so mad!

The next day at 7:00 sharp (when we usually meet at the park) I was ready to leave for school when he didn't show up. I couldn't believe it, he ditched me again! This time I was fuming. If he shows up at school today I will give him something to be mad about!

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Looking back on that night I feel terrible for being so mad. He wasn't seen again after that night which was eight months ago. I still can't forgive myself for what had happened. I could have done something! Something to save him and all I did was stand there annoyed at him because of his childish antics. And look what came out of that a sad and lost me.

Knock, knock, knock.

"Yes?" I say acknowledging my presence.

" Um, it's time for dinner if you would like to come down and join us." My mother warily tells me.

"Ok, thank you?" I say as if it were a question because I really don't want to talk to my family.

I get up off my bed and change into a pair of shorts and head down stairs. I can hear muffled voices coming from the kitchen and dining room area.

"At least she is talking to us again!" My mother states angrily to my father who is stand in front of the island.

"Whatever, can we just eat." My dad says harshly.

I continue making my way down the stairs and into the kitchen to grab some food. My mom had made rice and gravy for dinner tonight. Yeah I know, I know gross but it's actually really good.

I scooped some up onto my plate and start to walk back upstairs to my room, but before I can even leave the kitchen my mom yells.

"Sweetie why don't you join us for dinner tonight at the table with the whole family." She says sweetly.

"Um, actually I just want to be alone right now sorry." I say quietly.

"Ok." she replies sadly and continues to eat.

I continue walking up to my room and up the flight of stairs. I sit on my bed admiring the posters and articles on the walls. I wonder if I will ever get to see any of my favourite bands live?

It's almost 10:30 when I finish my dinner and sneak downstairs to put my dishes away. I see the lights on in the dining room. What if it's my mom she will surely yell at me for being up this late , but it's not. It is my little brother, Colin, he is 15 two years younger then me. It looks like he has been crying.... but why?

"Colin?" I whispered.

"Yes." He sniffled getting up gradually from the table.

"What's wrong bud?"

"I-It's Mom and Dad..... They're getting divorced ." He sobbed

I enveloped him in a warm hug. He cried into my shoulder for what felt like forever. I feel terrible for leaving him alone again.

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"SADIE!" Colin yelled up the stairway

"Hmmm" I quickly replied.

Colin climbed his way up the stairs and made his way into my room. He plopped down on my comforter making his presence known.

" I was wondering if you could take me to this thing...." He sputtered out in a hushed voice.

" And what would that be?" I questioned, very curious to what it could be.

"Well the school is having this fair and.. There is this girl and..."

"Say no more," I said enthusiastically "when do we need to leave for this fair?"

"5 o'clock." He said happily.

We left for the fair at 4:45 and arrived right on time to the high school. He turned to me with a worried expression. I patted him on the back and gave a reassuring smile. He grinned and then turned to get out of the car.

-text message-

Me- "I'll pick you up at 7 ok?"

C😁- "yeah thanks for the ride."

-over-

I drove back to the house and parked my car, my 2011 White Convertible Mustang, in the garage. As I was walking into the house I received a text message form my best girl friend Jasmine.

-message-

Jase❤️👌- hey want 2 go to a party with me and Zack

Me- sure when?

Jase❤️👌- 6:30

Me- ok.

-over-

At 6:00 Jase and Zack showed up at my front door in the party attire. We got back at 1:00 am and Zack had dropped me off back at my place.

SHIT!

I FORGOT ABOUT COLIN!

I ran into the house to grab my keys to pick him up when I saw him curled up on the couch with tear stains on his cheeks.

What have I done.

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After that I never broke my promises I made with anyone. Colin has gone through enough for a 15 year old boy. I don't want him to turn out like me.

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A/N

This is the same story and same author. I have just gotten a new account and put the chapters together to make them longer. I will continue to write on both accounts for now and we will see what happens other the weeks. <3