Breaking your heart without knowing it ~ Jendan

Chapter 11

Gerwyn Price's Point of View

5th Febuary 2024

It's been a few months since Joe was in the hospital, and me and Jonny still doesn't know what really happened. All we knew was that he was there. That's why we called Joe and asked him if he would like to hang out with us today. Also wanting to finally tell him that we are dating, and have been for over half a year. We're at my house, waiting for Joe to arrive. He had sounded a bit uneasy about this whole thing, but he agreed to come either way. Suddely the doorbell rang. I quickly got up and walked over to open it. There stood Joe, he looked happy. Way happier than I have seen him in a long time. I smiled at him and shut the door behind us. He removed his shoes and jacket and followed me in to the living room where Jonny was sat. I sat down next to Jonny and he sat across from us. "So... why'd you guys decide to finally hang out with me again?" he asked with a little laugh. "We thought it would be fun, and we have some things we want to talk about as well." Jonny replied. Joe nodded and we started chatting. And it was really fun, until Joe said something that brought down the mood. "You know what really get's under my skin when I'm down?" Joe asked with a laugh. "No? What?" I asked with a laugh, thinking it would be another fun little innocent joke. "Sharpened blades." he said, keeping the smile up, but saying it in a slightly smaller tone. "Joe..." Jonny said looking confused as to why Joe would make that kind of joke. "Joe, it's not okay to make selfharm jokes. You're just making fun of people who actually do that." I said feeling a bit pissed off by the so-called joke. "It's not that easy to just cut it out." he said, still smiling stupidly, with a little laugh. "Are you that fucking idiot type who drew red lines on their skin in school then? Huh??" I asked furiously, grabbing his wrist tightly. His eyes widened and smile faded, as he tried pulling away from me. Before he could, both me and Jonny saw it. I felt all strenght leave my body as I saw his arm covered in cuts. He quickly pulled away and left the room. I sat there for a good minute, not believing what I just had seen. Is that why he was in the hospital...? Did he try to commit suicide. He had a lot of scars, so maybe... I looked over at Jonny who looked as stunned as I was. I got up and walked out of the room as well. I sat down next to Joe, who was sobbing into his own knees. "Joe... I'm sorry." I said, apologising for maybe hurting him more. "It's fine... I'm getting better..." he said quietly. "Joe... is this why you were in the hospital?" I asked, wanting to get it confirmed. He wiped his tears and looked at me, then down on his chest. He pulled up his shirt, revealing a huge scar on his chest. "You tried to... kill yourself...?" I asked, not wanting to belive it. He shook his head. "No, it was an accident... please... believe me..." he said quietly, letting his shirt fall back down. "I do believe you." I said, smiling worriedly at the Bradfordian. "R- really?" he asked looking touched by those words. I nodded and smiled again.