After Hours

That's Not Okay..

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Bills eyes widen "did you drink all of your coke?"

"well yeah, why wouldn't I?" bill stays silent, helping  you into the bed "its okay princess, I wont hurt you" 

bill says getting me onto the bed. my eyes start to close down as well as my body. "wait what... I don't feel good I'm so tired out of nowhere" 

I say to bill fading into a sleep "I know... I put something in your drink. it wont kill you though!!" bill lays you down "what... that's not okay.. you cant do that!" I say, the last thing to come out of my mouth before I pass out.

"its okay princess.. I promise it wont hurt, I'll be gentle" being the last thing I heard

-BILLS POV- (I'M SO SORRY FOR WHATS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT!)

I watch as she sleeps, "i  don't know what I should do... Maybe go to toms room and just hang out for a bit"... I get dressed "but someone needs to watch over her...

" no.. she will be fine I didnt put a lot" I glance back at her as I'm about to leave.. "but that perfect body would be wasted..." 

I walk back, taking off my jacket and placing it on the table "Y/N...?" "Y/N can you hear me?" no response.. shes deep asleep. I start to get  crazy thoughts as I watch her sleep. "bill.. that's not okay... that's not okay" I repeat to myself.

 "maybe... maybe I can just jack off Infront of her" I say, taking more of my clothes off as I start to touch myself, getting hard fast I start to whimper as I watch her sleeping.

not long after, I'm sitting on top of her as I take her lacy bra off.. admiring what's underneath before I agressivley touch her breasts "just tell me if it hurts"

I had never done anything like this before.. but she was just different. I started to take off her matching thong, you could tell she shaved before she came here, "I'm so sorry" he says as starts to slowly touch your vagina

"I'm just a man"

I say slowly as I spread her legs open, crawling up to her entrance, inserting my member into hers, it is so hard.. shes so tight and I'm too large, but it can work if I try harder, I thrust more into her getting about 4 inches in.

eventually I got it all in, I saw her face twitch, knowing this is wrong I put a pillow over her 

"tell me if it hurts"

I say as I start to pound into her

-Y/Ns POV- (might make you cry)

I close my eyes, pretending to sleep. I think he tried to drug me, I don't want him to do anything else so I have to keep pretending to sleep. he wouldn't do anything to me during my sleep.

as he is about to leave to go to toms I hear him say "but someone needs to watch over her, no, she will be fine I didn't put a lot." no shit I'm still awake, wait he actually did drug me..

he walks over, I hear his footsteps, and his jacket unzipping , It hits the glass table. "but that perfect body would be wasted" my heart sinks as I hear those words leave his mouth. 

I hear him calling my name to see if I'm still awake, I stay silent hoping he leaves my body alone, I cant trust him after he tried to drug me.

"maybe I can just jack off Infront of her" oh no... this is going to happen, I hear him walking over unzziping his fly. I hear him putting lotion on his hand, then the obvious sounds of his masterbaution.

I hear him, moans of pleasure escaping his mouth, like the  background noises of "Human connect to human" not long after, he starts to get on the bed, him ontop of me he lifts me up slowly, taking my bra off, then drops my upper body in a flash.

He then quickly squeezes at my breasts, so hard, it hurts but I'm trying to keep him from knowing I'm awake

"just tell me if it hurts" Inside, I'm screaming, it hurts even more that this is against my will (GEGEN MEINEN WILLEN)

with his other hand I can feel him taking my thong off, I know what's coming, please...no. 

"I'm so sorry"

he says, in a hurt tone, but clearly he isn't sorry enough, I can feel his fingers going onto my vagina, inside of it, and out. 

"I'm just a man"

those 4 words piercing me as I think to my self, why would I ever trust a man, just because he's from tokio hotel? this is my fault isn't it.

I feel upset, partly because I know millions of others go through this, I shouldn't be sad, others feel this too, this is my fault, I shouldn't be upset.

"just let me know if it hurts"

IT HURTS! I feel him, I can feel him inserting into me, it hurts so much, the pain unbearable, my fists are balling up, my face clenches in pain, I know he notices but he wont stop.

"no.. your not going to watch me" 

he says noticing my face clenching up, putting a pillow over my face, not applying pressure, he just lets it rest over me. finally I open my eyes, they are full of tears, I sit there crying with the pillow over me

in my head all I can say is "its my fault" he keeps going, its been 9 minutes, I finally say "Thats not okay bill.." muffled under the pillow. "that's not okay"