Unexpected.

Chapter #4

I got into their car, and I was sat between Niall and Liam. Breathe Lily, breathe. I was telling myself. "You Lily, right?" Harry asked, I smiled and nodded my head. My leg was shaking. My leg shakes all the time because I have anxiety, but never this fast.

Louis was in the passenger seat up front, and I guess he noticed. He put his hand on my knee and said, "Calm down love! No need to be nervous around us. Promise we don't bite. Haha!" Louis laughed, and I chuckled at his joke. But I was uncomfortable with his hand on my knee. I ended up shaking even more. I kind of moved my knee, trying to hint to Louis to take his hand off. He did.

I just ignored whatever my anxiety was doing and tried to talk to the boys. "So, um. Where are we going?" I asked, my voice kind of shook. But I don't think they noticed. "Back to our flat," Zayn said with his cheeky, cute little smile. I smiled back at him and nodded his head.

"I'm hungry," Niall said, with a pouting voice. "How?! We just ate! There is leftover Nandos at the flat Nialler." Liam said shocked. I chuckled and so did the boys. After about 20 minutes, we got to their flat. And their driver pulled into the driveway.

They all got out of the car, and Niall gave me a hand, once I stepped out. The boys started walking to the door, and I followed behind them with my head down.

"Come on love!" Louis said opening the door. I followed. Zayn jumped onto the couch, and all the boys jumped onto him. I just giggled watching them. "Come sit," Zayn said, patting a seat between him and Niall, I nodded and sat down. I pulled out my phone and texted Adian.

Lily- Hey Adian. I'm with Niall, Liam, Harry, Louis, and Zayn. I love you to the MOON and back.

I pull my phone back into my pocket once I send it to him.

"Wanna watch a movie? Toy Story." Liam said, the boys rolled their eyes but nodded. "Lily, do you like this movie?" Niall asked me. I was kind of nervous to tell them that I'd never seen it.

"Never seen it," I said, Liam looked at me like I had just broken his heart.
I laughed and Liam shook his head. It was like halfway through the movie when Niall put his hand on my thigh. I had a huge pit in my belly. My leg started shaking again. I guess he noticed. He looked at me with a confused look, and not going to lie, I felt a tear start to form in my eye.

"Hey, uh. I need to use the restroom, can you show me where it is?" I asked. Still holding back tears and shaking. "Uhm yeah, I'll take you," Liam said. He got up from the couch and I followed him down the hall. I was about to walk in when he gently grabbed my shoulder, stopping me.

"Hey, is everything okay? I saw Niall rest his hand on your leg, and you just kind of, went into panic mode." He asked, he did seem worried. So many flashbacks going through my head. I nodded my head and I had already felt a tear roll down my cheek. I looked down and wiped it off as fast as I could.
I don't think he noticed it, right? He probably did, but it's fine.

Everything fine. He nodded and I walked into the bathroom. I sat down on the floor, tears flooding my eyes. My nose is running. Finally, Adiantexted me back.

Adian- the moon and back. Call me. Its okay.

"Moon" is my and Adians secret word, if I'm ever panicking, or just need someone. I just him "Moon" and he knows what's going on. But I called him. I raised the phone to my ear, with my shaking hand. "Lily? Hey, it's okay. Just breathe. What's going on." He said, in a soft yet, worried voice.

I cried, trying not to make a noise, so the boys wouldn't hear. "Niall rested his hand on my thigh. He didn't do anything bad, but it brought back so many memories.
You know this always happens when people touch me. Besides you, Parker, and Josh. Why me? Why can I be normal."

I said crying. I'm trying to fight back the tears but it's not working. "Hey, it's okay. You are normal. It's not your fault Lil."

He kept comforting me, until I stopped crying, and picked myself up off the floor. I wiped off the makeup that had streamed down my face, and also the tears. I said I loved him and hung up.

Time to face them again. Gotta put my big girl pants on.
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