Love.
I would always strive for it, i get boyfriends all the time, maybe even girlfriends too. When i break up with someone, i have another, the cycle constantly repeats. But sometimes, i don't immediately find someone to love, so when that happens, i usually go a bit crazy. And i mean, crazy.
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I was at a birthday party, a new friend of mine. I went to her birthday and there were so many people, and we had tons of fun, but then i saw him, for some reason i had a strong feeling towards him. I don't know why but i just did, i tried talking to him but i got too shy and just kept to myself, i wanted to be with him so bad, i couldn't just let him slip away, but then again, i was too shy. Until, my two friends were talking to him, one of them called me in to join the conversation, "Hey could i have you're guys' socials? you guys seem nice" my heart jumped with joy at that moment, and right as the party was ending, i and a couple other people were the only ones left, i was talking to a friend and he stepped on my shoes, i complained to him about it and the guy i was talking to earlier poured coke on my shoes, thank goodness they were leather, i thought, i still remember the smile on his face after telling me "that should help with the dust on your shoes", it felt like heaven.
A couple of days had passed and me and him started talking more, we would do late night calls, text each other in a suggestive way, and it was all such a dream. Until my friends found out. They would constantly complain and complain, "you never talk to us anymore" or "you've changed", and why does it matter? I was happy.
The more i talked to him, the more obsessed i became, i would buy him gifts, make usernames relating to him, and i would even go so low as to following him around, it was just amazing. My friends noticed my behavior though, "Don't you think you're getting a little too obsessed?" my friends meant well. But i just couldn't let him go, they kept adding comments, or saying anything, until i snapped when my friend said "you guys aren't even dating", i slapped her, i got so mad i started to punch her, i just couldn't believe she would say that to me. He loved me just as much as i loved him.
But then, as time went on, he started getting more distant, more cold. I was getting worried for him, but then one day, i was walking around and i saw him. He was with another girl. My heart shattered into a million pieces and i ran away. And to think i even loved him. I vowed to never love someone like him again, but of course.. you can't stop once you've begun.
"Hey, do you still like *****?" a friend asked.
"Of course not, i'm not that obsessed".
But i was lying.
To this day, april 20, 2024, i still love him, since the day i saw him at that birthday party 532 days ago, and counting.
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Hope you enjoyed. if you bothered to read it, thank you.
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