The Girl he Never Wanted

Chapter 1:

                                           5 years ago~

 "Kiley, you're really not funny. You know that right?" Austin grumbled as I laughed my ass off at a joke I told. 

  He didn't have to be so fucking rude about it though even if that is what he thought.

  "I know this, Double A." I grinned, knowing he hates that nickname.

He stared at me coldly. "It's Austin, you fuckin shit." 

"Whatever." I said crossing my arms, watching as a group of Austin's friends walked past laughing. I hate them, they laugh at him every damn time they see me with him, like I'm not a  human with feelings. 

I watched as Austin looked at me with cold eyes, seeing a little sympathy in them as I teared up. He grabbed my arm and squeezed the hell out of it. As his huge muscles flexed, all sympathy in his eyes was gone. "Tighten the fuck up." He told me, storming off. I couldn't help but stare after him.

 He was so beautiful. I loved everything about him. His fluffy black hair that almost covered his eyes, his muscular build, his perfect teeth. He used to be so nice to me, we hung out all summer, and I've been trying to keep contact with him, but I'm beginning to think he doesn't want contact at all.  All summer we went to the beach together, we even drew pictures and painted together. I've always had a huge crush on him, it can't just go away. A part of me hoped he felt the same. 

I sighed and turned around as a spotted Parie in front of me, staring at me with worried eyes. He acts so fucking innocent and he isn't. He's done this to every girl in our school; pretending to care, then ditching them. 

"What do you want?" I looked at him with teary eyes. 

"You know what I want babe." He wiggled his eyebrows at me. I wanted to vomit,

"Get away from me, please." I shivered in disgust. As I walked off I felt weak arms grab me. "Parie get the hell off of me. NOW!" I screamed as everyone turned to look at me, including Austin and his friends, stopping their conversation. Austin and his friends laughed, Austin laughing the hardest. I hated my life. 

I walked off holding my arm, feeling it bruising by the second.

Fuck Austin.

I finally got to my car. I sat in the drivers seat, grabbing my phone out of the back pocket of my jeans, dialing Austin's number. I listened as I heard his voice on the other end. 

"What." He said with no emotion to be detected at all.

"I was wondering if you wanted to grab something to eat? Please." I pleaded. I needed to talk him through whatever has been going on. 

"I'm busy." 

"Oh, maybe another time?" 

"Probably not. Bye." 

Why the hell has he been so mean? I want my old best friend back. I threw my phone at the wind shield, creating a visible crack across it. And that's when the tears started.

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I finally reached home after what felt like forever. I walked inside, throwing my keys and book bag on the counter, running up the stairs. My dad wasn't home, he never was. I slammed my door, changing into a tank top and shorts. I decided to text Austin.

Me

Hey :) I just wanted to let you know that I have a huge crush on you, let me know your thoughts.

I put my phone down. People have told me i'm immature for my age. A lot of people have faith in me that i'll get better and have a glow up. I'm just gonna admit, I'm ugly, I know I am. I'm also super insecure about my weight, but even when I was Austin would always cheer me up. I weigh 170 pounds at 17. It makes me sick. 

I hear my phone ding.

Double A ♥

When are you going to get it through you head. I don't like you. I don't even want to be near you. Ever. This is the end of our "friendship". Grow up. Goodbye.

Tears immediately started spooling as I opened my side table drawer, immediately grabbing the tiny pencil sharpener and a screwdriver.