liAr (liAr pAnts on fire)

season 1, episode 2 : the one with the jenna thing

The five of us were sitting around The Grill. There weren't many people there, just an older couple, and a few waiters and waitresses standing around. Even then, we still weren't talking loudly.

"Why was Jenna there?" Aria asked the question we were all thinking.

"I guess she's back," Spencer responded.

"I don't like it." I said, and they all stared at me. "What? With her around, we have something to lie about. Something to be guilty about. We ruined her life."

"That cop acted like we were suspects or something." Hanna stated, and she wasn't wrong. He totally did.

"Do you think we looked guilty?" Emily asked, panicking a little.

"Why would we?" Aria asked her. "We haven't done anything wrong."

"Ugh, except you know, we ruined Jenna's life." I snapped. Aria acting like we never did anything to Jenna made me mad. Yeah, Jenna wasn't my favorite person and never would be, but we were all there that night.

"Except lie about "The Jenna Thing"." Hanna defended me and made the point to Aria.

"We promised we'd never bring up "The Jenna Thing" again. Remember? It never happened." Spencer told us.

Emily, who was sitting to my left, reached over and grabbed my water, and took a drink. "This conversation is making me paranoid."

"I'd say I'd order us another one but we're talking about things that we promised never to bring up." I glared at Spencer and Aria.

"Have you found a way to forget? I still wake up sometimes in the middle of the night - " Aria told us.

"Aria, it was an accident." Spencer told her, trying to make her feel less guilty about the situation.

"Was it though?" I whispered, but only Emily and Hanna heard me.

Emily looked down at the friendship bracelet that Alison had made each of us. They were identical . Hanna took the opportunity to dump the rest of the alcohol from the funeral in her soda. The old man stared at her, judging.

"It's medicinal." She told him, but he clearly didn't believe her. "Cramps!" I had to stifle my laugh as the man finally looked away.

"I don't get it," Emily said.

"Don't get what?" I asked her, because there were a lot of things that I didn't get.

"How does A know something about me that only Alison knew?"

"Ali knew all our secrets, but," Aria started, she took a breath. "We never knew any of hers."

"I knew some." Spencer told her.

"Me too." I said quietly. I didn't like knowing Alison's secrets.

"Go on," Aria prompted us.

I looked at Spencer and all but pleaded with her to talk. I did not want to.

"I can't," She finally admitted after our staring contest.

"I'm not sharing what I know until you share what you know!"

"She'd kill me if I told you." Spencer told the girls.

"She's dead." Hanna deadpanned.

Spencer thought for a second before she blurted it out. "Ali was seeing someone that summer."

"I knew she was keeping something from me!" Emily said, upset. I chose to ignore the fact that Emily liked Alison because I knew she would tell me when she was ready to. "I mean us." She added quickly.