Masa Kelas F/ what was really happened?

Part 10: Nightmare, Violent Games, and New Dating Place

I once had a bad dream of shooting a school security guard, I forget whether I had that dream in semester one or semester two, but maybe semester one maybe my dream was influenced by my old habit of playing the game Hitman Code name: 47, a game about the bald agent who killing big criminals such as Lee Hong, the red dragon mafia in Kowloon, Pablo Belisario Ochoa, a military officer who became a drug dealer in Latin America, arms smuggler Arkadiy Yegorov from Russia in the Dutch port of Rotterdam who carried nuclear weapons on his ship, an Austrian terrorist in the hotel Budapest Thermal Bath, and Dr Kovacs, creator of Agent 47 in a secret research facility hidden in an asylum in Eastern Europe. 

In my dream I entered the school as usual, through the only door at that time which was near the sub-district office, then when I entered I "went up" to the science lab, I put the word up in quotation marks because even though the science lab was on the first floor but The building was higher than the ground in the field, there I took out the Sniper rifle case, it looked like the parts of the rifle still needed to be put together, but after it was finished, I felt the rifle was too long and easy to see, the shooting distance was also too close, at the end building, there are a number of 7th graders who usually call me Boss Banon. That room used to be the school health Unit and prayer room when I was in 7th grade. I replaced the weapon with an AK 47, but I felt that the weapon would still be visible to the 7th grade students and would make a loud noise. I put the AK 47 in my bag and took it out. H&K MP5. I felt the weapon was suitable, it was strange how my bag was filled with various kinds of weapons, what was even stranger was that the students at the end of the building were just chatting without paying attention to what I was doing, then I aimed and shot until the target bounced horizontally into the gap between the building and the fence school, so that the victim's body is hidden, the victim should be mentally towards the back because of the pushing force of the bullet. 

Then I went to the elementary school where I used to learn and left the Baretta 88 pistol with my best friend from elementary school who was continuing his studies at another middle school, he was at the same middle school as Fah Rizal, I left my gun with him to get rid of the evidence. I don't know why the Submachine Gun I was using earlier turned into a silenced pistol. I woke up in the morning with a bad mood and very tense, maybe it was the influence of the game, but I haven't played the game for a long time, I also know these weapons from there. Maybe because I felt like I had a naughty stigma, my subconscious mind formed the image of me as a criminal.

I hope readers don't accuse me of being a psychopath, I don't feel comfortable with violence that is too explicit, I don't feel comfortable playing Counter Strike and I never played Point Blank, which at that time was played a lot by children my age. The Point-Blank game has a worse moral side than Hitman 47 and Counter Strike, in Hitman the targets are big-time criminals who are untouchable by the law, whereas in Counter Strike you can act as an Anti-Terror squad whose job is to prevent a bomb from being detonated, right? Even though in Counter Strike you can also be a terrorist, a terrorist can be a hero for other people, the term terrorist can also be more related to politics than pure crime, for example a freedom fighter from a colonized nation can be considered a terrorist by the colonizing country. Well, in Point Blank it's not clear what is being fought for, there people just have fun by shooting, and get a score if they succeed in shooting their opponent in the head. Head shots get the highest score in the game, and the players are very happy and look happy when they succeed in shooting their opponent's head, this can be seen when they exclaim "headshot" when they succeed in shooting their opponent's head in the game.

However, perhaps the old habit of playing the Hitman game is also not good for children my age because the game contains violence. Point Blank and Counter Strike have been openly criticized in newspapers by education observers, maybe Hitman would also be criticized if it became more widely known, the Hitman series is not widely played in my country like Point Blank and Counter Strike so not many people know about it.