re-love

chapter 7

"good morning ma am" "never thought your idea of morning is 5 am" "morning person i am" "should i get in or not?" "please" 

"seriously? 1956 jaguar roadster? where did you get this?" "you kidding me?i'm adrian thorn, what i want, i get" "and what exactly are those?" "you" "adrian i cant.." "why?" "i cant love anyone" "marissa..." "i was...blabbering, nevermind, dont pay attention to what i said, where are we going?" "a mall" "A mall?" "yeah, what's wrong with a mall?" "nothing, its just.." "you sounded like a retarded young woman from a county that's never been to a mall before" i form a small smile

"you know what marissa?" "hm?" "loosen up?" "what do you mean?" "smile from your heart, laugh for real, use real expression" "i dont know what you're talking about" "you think i cant see it? the pain in your eyes even when you're smiling, laughing, i dont know what have you been trough for the past 9 years, but i know it gave cause you a great sorrow" "you know what thorn" "hm?" "sometimes you're not that stupid"

how did he?

how did he see trough me

"i think i recalled that  you love nutella milkshake dont you?" i smiled "yeah, but i think its gonna be hard, finding that old drink" "i know where to find it" "oh really?" "want some?" "extra ice cream" "lets roll" 

he took me to a shop called 'Grandma's Choco' at the edge of the town 

"best nutella milk i've ever taste" "where did you find places like this" "i actually kinda love culinary, you know?" "oh really? ithought you only love getting into bed with girls all the time" "that's more of um..nature, this is more of a hobby" "whatever you say, mr man whore" "oh come on, you're still calling me that? even after 9 years?" "you're still a man whore so yeah i'm gonna keep calling you that" 

"do you ever think of a disguise name mar?" "hm....what would yours be?" "mine would be..steven bourne" "bourne? seriously?" "yeah, you?" "hm....natasha rumlow" "natasha? rumlow? what are you? black widow in S.T.R.I.K.E?""what?" "natasha is black widow's name, and rumlow is one of strike's agent's name" "oh...never calculated that, i just love the name" i said , and he laughed

Adrian and i took a stroll at the edge of the town

"so.......um, its..9 o clock now" "time really went by quickly" i said "with you, yeah" he said "hm?""when i'm with you, it feels like time went by so quickly" "i bet you said that to every girl" "no, just you, those girls are like toys for me, but you...there's something about you that--" "adrian stop" "no, i want to tell you, i wanna tell you what i'm feeling, cause for the first time, i think im actually feeling something for someone, the first person i've ever...loved" "adrian--" he pulled and kissed me 

finally, all that i need to do now is to destroy him

but...why do i feel like this isnt right? like...i cant destroy him

i broke the kiss

"adrian i cant--this isnt right" "no it is, it is right" "we shouldn't be together, i--" i ran as quickly as i could and took a taxi, the first time i've ever ride a taxi after years 

when i got home, i ran straight to my room

"mademoiselle!mademoiselle black!"

how could i? how coud i fell for him? i have no feelings, it was just yesterday i swore to henry i dont have any feelings

but staring into those deep blue eyes, i felt something i've never felt before

i...

i'm..