re-love

chapter 8

marissa's pov

Henry must've been tracking down my phone and i anticipate that, i threw my phone in the middle of the sea, he'd probably track me here too, down to malibu 

"ma am, your drink" "thanks"

well, drinking at the side of the beach is cozy, been a long time 

"um..miss?" i look down and see a little blond  girl "oh, hey there" "may i take a picture with you?" 

"clarissa! clarissa! oh i'm so sorry, my daughter is a huge fan of you, i told her not to bother you but--" "oh no no no, its fine" 

"alright honey, smile! in three, two, one!"

we took the photo

"thank you very much ms. black " "pleasure's all mine" "come on honey" "bye bye miss" 

i smiled to the little girl as they walk away, left me wondering, will i ever get that kind of life?

married, have children

i return my glass to the beach club and return to my hotel

as i lay down, my hotel phone rang "miss rumlow, someone asked for you" "i tought you're supposed to not tell  anyone whether i'm here or not" "but this person is..adrian thorn, ma am" "WHAT?!" "should i send him up?" "quick" "yes ma am"

not long after, i hear the bell rang, and i open the door

"hey natasha" "What? how the fuck did you find me?" "i tracked down the name marissa black, zero, but then i remembered, natasha rumlow" "you smug son of a bitch" "thank you, i'll make myself comfortable right here" he jumped t my bed "does henry know i'm here?" "no, me alone, since i'm the only know who natasha rumlow is" "oh shut up" "how did you make a fake id that fast?" "ever heard the word money?" "since i love to spend it, yes" "that's what i thought" i said, looking outside ho hotel's window

"are you planning to come back?" "no" "why?" "i want to start fresh, i'm escaping my old life" "you cant" "and why is that?" "cause i wont let you" "and how are you gonna stop it?" 

"i know you love me" "no i dont" "deny it as much as you want" "i.dont.love.you, i'm meant to kill you, i--" "stop lying!"

" i lie to survive" "you dont need to anymore" "oh really?" "cause i got you now" "adrian, i'm not used--" "i know you'e not used to trusting anyone, or relying on anyone, but this time, trust me, i wont make you regret loving me" 

"adrian, your world would be better without me" "but it wouldn't be my world without you in it" a drop of tear escaped my eyes 

he delicately wipe it off "i'm a person, that's....i..i cant give you a normal future" "i dont want normal, i dont need normal, i need you" "are you sure" "i didnt come all this way for nothing, i love you" "i....i love you too" his lips captured mine

and as that night, i lost my virtue to the guy i swore i'd kill