𝐓𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 ( 𝑴𝒚 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒔 )

Make A Wish

Written: April 21st, 2024 + May 23rd, 2024

Genre: Definitely not pop. Something like rock? Originally, it was pop, but then I realized that pop doesn't fit for THIS type of song. Maybe something unhinged like R&B or EDM? I've lost my mind, in case you haven't noticed 🙃

I purposefully made this song 'track five' because it's one of the most vulnerable songs I've ever written. Considering the song before was 'all alone', which DOES have the same vibes of this. And so does 'she's all i wanna be' by Tate McRae.

And yeah, I know I said this songbook was going to be about stepping into the daylight and letting it go and shit? Well, fuck that. Just for now, anyway. This is a track five, and you guys are going to need some extra tissues 🤧

Alright, enough of me ranting. Who is ready for it...? and the emotional whiplash that 'Make A Wish' brings? Cause I sure aren't 🤞

1ST VERSE:

You built a fortress around my heart

Brick by brick, year by year

Keep the cracks concealed

The sinking ships and lost arguments

Still stale in the air

Afraid to let you in, to show the scars I hide

The whispers of a broken soul, all the secrets I denied

Were you the right one to confide in?

CHORUS:

Should I make a wish right now?

Unafraid to swallow the pride I never had

You said 'let it all out, let your tears free'

And in that moment, finally, I felt truly free

2ND VERSE:

I let the floodgates open, all the pain I had suppressed

Those words you said out loud hurt

But was I going to say that back?

But the truth was blind, I didn't see the lie

That hand that reached to comfort?

Was the hand that made me cry

CHORUS:

Should I make a wish right now?

Unafraid to swallow the pride I never had

You said 'let it all out, let your tears free'

And in that moment, finally, I felt truly free

BRIDGE:

Now, my soul's like a bloodstained canvas of red paint

All of it was stained in your treachery

My vulnerability, a weapon you used to break me

I wish I could rewind, replace the words I said

The trust I placed in you,

The love I carelessly bled

The echoes of your whispers still linger in the night,

But I chase them with the dawn and embrace the fading light.

I'll rise from the ashes, a phoenix in flight,

With wings of forgiveness and a soul shining bright.

CHORUS:

Should I make a wish right now?

Unafraid to swallow the pride I never had

You said 'let it all out, let your tears free'

And in that moment, finally, I felt truly free

OUTRO:

I'll learn to build again with a stronger, wiser heart

But the pain of your betrayal will always leave its mark

I'll cherish the vulnerability, the lessons learned in pain

But never again will I let another take my trust in vain



Sorry not sorry about the melodramatic, heartbreaking lines in this song, because writing this song was really essential to my mental health and letting out all these emotions and my jealousy, my anger and honestly just my vulnerability in general was really important for me, as in the end, I was able to see why it's major to just focus on yourself and your well-being than worrying about others.

I've been streaming 'she's all I wanna be' by Tate McRae on loop lately. Why? One, it's a bop. Two? It's fucking relatable as hell. The chorus to that song really hits. Especially the first line? 'Stupid boy making me so sad' so me core 🥲🤌

The 1st verse is based on how I was friends with someone and how I could think I trusted them with all the insecurities I was about to lay on their shoulders, and they didn't return the favor. They told people about my insecurities purposefully to "get me back". I didn't know what the hell that meant.

The chorus and 2nd verse really mirror the same idea. After the 1st verse ( denial ), I'm starting to see through these coats of lies, and I'm starting to get angry. At my "friend" and at myself for thinking I could trust them.

The bridge is based on the line in the poem Taylor gave us after the announcement of TTPD at the Grammys. 'My veins of pitch black ink.' I can't help myself but spill out these emotional and deep cutting words. I've been torn open, and it's all exposed. In the words of Katy Perry, it's a part of me.

'All of it was stained in your treachery' really explains and captures the whole idea of the song. This song is about me being vulnerable to someone who I thought I could trust. But they ended up telling other people about all my insecurities and the ironic part, how I'm scared of being vulnerable. Vulnerability has always been a foreign concept to me. I'd rather keep things to myself and not make everything about me. ( I just got WAOLOM vibes as I wrote that, lol )

The following line 'My vulnerability, a weapon you used to break me' totally mirrors that idea in the sense that this person used my insecurities, imperfections and all the little things I was hiding from the world ( mainly my friends ) and practically made them turn against me. Society is FUCKED up tbh.

Thanks for reading! I love you all to the Moon and Saturn! Stay safe ❤️

~ Jacquelyn