𝐓𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐫𝐞 ( 𝑴𝒚 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒔 )

all alone

Written: May 1st, 2024 + May 21st, 2024

Genre: Bedroom pop. I stand by my previous statement.
Kind of acoustic-y? It would have the raw sounds of a demo, with kind of a light guitar in the background? Basically 'girl I've always been' & 'Clara Bow' ( definitely with some synths because I can't last without a hint of pop. )

This song reminds me of 'Little Freak' by Harry Styles. Not sonically in any way, but in the way where you're thinking about someone in a positive light, whether it be a former love interest, ex-friend, or just the one that got away. You're not thinking about them in jealousy, or in spite that they moved on, you're just thinking about them.

For me, this song really focuses on you were never that close with a person. You never saw the scars that they carried or their birthmarks. You never saw their flaws or their insecurities, maybe because you were too scared to be that vulnerable emotionally, or maybe neither of you opened up. It's when you fall really hard, really fast, even when you're not that close. You never had the chance to get close to them.

With that being said, this song is about an ex-friend who I never really got that close with. Our connection slipped away into a moment in time cause it was never mine. I had a slight soft spot for them because they were really shy, and honestly, I may or may not had feelings for them.

1ST VERSE:

Remember how we used to laugh?

Just fleeting glances in the hall

Always on the edge of close, but never quite there at all

We shared a smile, a passing word

A joke that we'd both understand

But we never dug below the surface,

Never held each other's hand

CHORUS:

Now I'm all alone, the silence screaming your name

And I'm drowning in regret

I wish I had said something more to you

The secrets hidden behind your eyes, stories left untold

A tapestry of hidden fears

Your imperfections, like whispers I'll never hear about

2ND VERSE:

Was I too scared to let you in, or were you guarding your own heart?

Maybe we were both afraid, afraid to tear each other apart

We built a castle of small talk, a fortress of polite lies

And now it's crumbling down around me, under a sky of tear-stained clouds

And I'm left with faded memories and a heart that aches with pain

Knowing that the chance we had will never come again

A whisper on the wind, a teardrop on the pane

A love unlived, a friendship lost, a forgotten name

CHORUS:

Now I'm all alone, the silence screaming your name

And I'm drowning in regret

I wish I had said something more to you

The secrets hidden behind your eyes, stories left untold

A tapestry of hidden fears

Your imperfections, like whispers I'll never hear about

BRIDGE:

Now I see your face in every single crowd

A living ghost of what could've been

I hear your laughter in the wind, chills up my spine like spikes

The whispers of what we might've had

A forgotten friendship, one will say

A life unlived, a lost and lonely embrace

A thousand unspoken words, letters I threw out

You could've been mine if I wasn't caught up in myself

CHORUS:

Now I'm all alone, the silence screaming your name

And I'm drowning in regret

I wish I had said something more to you

The secrets hidden behind your eyes, stories left untold

A tapestry of hidden fears

Your imperfections, like whispers I'll never hear about

OUTRO:

Now I'm all alone, as the silence screams your name

I will never see your face again

Thousands of lives unlived

Shocking, but true

Will I forever be all alone?