THEIR WORLD...

chapter 8

      Just lying down Soo is thinking about Ji Ho again. What was her mistake that Jiho chose his "best friend" Mia over her ?! Eight months Jiho didn't lose any chance to win Soo and in November she finally agreed to be in relationship with him but this relationship just tore apart in 3 shitty weeks. What happened actually? 'I was happy. We went to the museum together but i... I wasn't comfortable at all...But I am an attention seeker freak. Maybe I was wrong at that time but he literally stopped to remember me. I felt like I was taken now he got me now and he wouldn't care anymore. We didn't talk, just chatted a bit at night. I know when he got online and everything about him but he just knew my favorite chocolate type nothing else. Am I stupid? Shouldn't have I agreed to his offer? But...I wanted to be loved. I really wanted to be loved. No one has ever put this effort to love me before. Didn't I really love him? No ... I do pity for myself cause no matter how much he tried to show these sweet words he made me realize how I was useless and nobody actually can love me with this face and this attitude in the end...I will never be someone's someone special. I'm not worth someone's love. I am...just...no one' hot tears got their ways down on her face. Yes ,he said so many things to her, he made her believe that someone can love her in actual life, she met his friends and be friends with them, she knew him, about his past life, his trauma, his ex-girlfriend. She met his ex, not met just chatted with her but she was too arrogant girl and didn't want to give Jiho and was looking for the girl Jiho started to love. She wasn't so into getting him too but she didn't want to create any drama and just kept her name and talked to her. She didn't say anything bad to her though. Things were getting worse at that time. Sometimes Jiho shouted at her just talking to his friends, sometimes his friends made her nothing in from them. but interesting part was that everything was on that phone. She can remember every single tear she shed as if they did everything to her face. In summer his ex committed suicide... she killed herself... She heard it from one of Jiho's toxic friends. She was both shocked and anxiety rushed over her. Only question which was roaming in her mind was 'why?'

In the beginning of the new semester everything started to change. She was mostly depressed and stressed cause she had to endure the same pain every time she saw him. Sometimes she felt like hugging him and crying and telling everything that his toxic friends did to her, how they treated badly to her but no. It was impossible. On her birthday she was alone at dormitory and Jiho texted her. She was over the moon when she got his text but after talking a bit she came to know that he hated her for fake rich boyfriend that she never knew herself. Something was..wrong...

After that talk she decided to give a chance to him and agreed to be his girlfriend. Everything was good at the beginning but later he started to ghost her, spend little time. He surpassed his friend in their group over her...

' till that day you have never talked about your friends.' Soo asked over texts. 'it is like they have vanished into thin air..'

'we agreed not to talk about it, right?'

' but I want to know. I am your girlfriend and I have rights to know' she complained being pissed ' why did she kill herself? What happened to her?'

' I SAID WE WON'T TALK ABOUT IT. GOT IT?!' he was very serious and anger was fuming inside him. But Soo isn't someone who talk less and listen to someone's words. She talked back with the same anger...

' I just want to know'

'what do you want to know? About the girl who is died because of you?!'

Soo froze for a minute and looked back at her phone again. 'did I read right? Wait it is right. Me? Because of me?' she was shocked. Her mind was not working anymore but still she managed to write 'why me?'

' enough. Soo, please stop.'

'okay...' she wrote and deleted all chat history. She put the phone beside her pillow and hugged her knees in the verge of cry. Hot tears were swiping her sun-tanned soft face. That night sleep was sin for her.....

Yes, he had apologized her for 100 times but it was late, she couldn't forget this incident. Everything was upside-down already. She tried to be fine again, she tried so hard to forget and live happily with him again but all useless. Everytime she saw him, she felt formidable burden on her precious shoulder. And eventually, she realized that she couldn't do it anymore. She wrote her decision to Ji ho because she knew she didn't have courage to tell it to his face.

'let's stop.' This was all she managed to write to express her feelings....

She snapped out of her painful memories with the pop of notification on her phone. To her surprise, it is from unknown number. 'wow. I have never had a message from this account before' she thought and opened it with hesitation.

'hi sister-in-law' with the emoticon of grin. What the what?! Who is he or she?!

'hi. I guess it is wrong number. Maybe you should check it once more...'

'no. this is the right one, miss Soo' he texted back. She was beyond shock and waited for his further text. ' miss, we are in the same group. I am Hea joon.'

' oh hi...' she felt awkward like why in the earth this boy is bothering her right now. At this time, she noticed the word ' sister-in-law'.' What the hell?! I don't know this boy and he is what now?! I will wait. Yeah...it is better.

'ummm...why are you calling me like that???'

'nothing miss. I just wanted to know the assignments for tomorrow. ' ending with wide-smiling emoticon.

'we don't have any' I just typed back being completely irritated.

' 0o0 really? 'I am feeling so off about this boy. What literally does he want?! And no sooner I brought my fingers on the keyboard of my phone, his message popped up again saying

'yes, I know. I just remember. Sorry for disturbance.' Aren't they a bit weird?! why in the whole earth he texted me and why he just said something like that?! I don't like boys like him...

In the beautiful sunflower garden, a short haired angel is running around the field feeling the soft rhythm of wind and sweet smell of flowers. She is wearing milk-white gown like her creamy face and like the real color of happy clouds.... With loud annoying scream like laughing voice, he shut open his ocean eyes and noticed that he is still showering. Cursing HeaJoon under his breath he tried to memorize that moment; that girl wandering around that dreamy garden. On the bathroom window he is looking at his face smiling like an idiot right now cause he isn't seeing anyone but that angel again. In my mind, some beautiful music is being played over and over again. I am watching her smile synchronizing with the slight chords of the music. My happiness, my love... what are you doing to me? What kind of person are you making of me? I just don't wanna leave this world...

Wiping his silky dark black hair he moved the bathroom door gently not to want to create any sound and look around the room revealing that filthy Joon grinning like a complete moron.

'what are you doing here at this time?'

'talking to my future sister-in-law... why?' he halted on his step. It took him some minutes to realize what he was talking about. His eyes got widen and run to Joon and snatched his phone from his hand. He has already messed up with that 'sister-in-law'. He typed sorry back to Soo and looked at Joon with done face while he was laughing like a hyena.

'What happened now?! He just says 'sorry' and went offline?! These guys are something unexpected.' She slowly got up and looked at her face and body. Those thoughts were tormenting her and her mind and some useless shit in her chest was aching beyond the pale.

'It is true that he leaves me. Everybody leaves me. Who in the world would fell in love with this unsavoury, junky human like me?! I am disgrace.' My each day is congested with these distressing words. Sometimes I feel like not breathing anymore. I don't even know till when I can survive like that?'