Emily Eve Best & Myself

Eve or Paget ?

Reader's PoV:

Standing there staring at the door to my hotel room, trying to wrap my head around what had just happened, letting out a heavy sigh, I walk back over to the sofa and drink some water in an attempt to sober up, as I was feeling the effects of the alcohol and right now I needed a clear head, before trying to talk with Eve again.

Eve had told me she has wanted to kiss me for weeks now? The question I have now did Eve want to kiss me just to practice and prepare the kissing scene we have coming up in a couple of days or did she want to just kiss me? groaning in frustration I pick up my phone as I need to talk to someone.

Turning my phone back on, I got a notification letting me know that I have a new message from Paget, as I read her message, I couldn't help the frown that appeared on my face as I read her message.

"Have a good time with Eve, don't do anything I wouldn't do lol just joking, nonetheless I want details tomorrow, love you xxx," reading and re-reading Paget message I couldn't help wondering if I have said something in our conversations or messages to make Paget think I liked Eve more than a friend? I chuckle at the thought; it was ridiculous because we were trying to build a friendship not a relationship.

Going into my phone contacts, I stroll through it, going straight to Paget's number, wanting to ask her if she thought I liked Eve more than a friend, as I was just about to hit the call button, I hesitated as I remembered Eve telling me that she had thought Paget and I were in a relationship, in a strange way I understand why she might of thought that were in a relationship, we had been messaging each other every day or talking on the phone, mostly talking about Criminal Minds and ideas we have about our characters, if we get the green light for a new series, we knew that they would still be in love with each other and had never really dated anyone else and if they had dated someone else the relationship never lasted long, Paget and I had also wanted our two characters to have a very intense conversation, because we wanted to give the fans what they had been wanting for years, closure for our characters and the fans, however Eve wasn't to know that as I hadn't told her.

I let out another groan, drinking some more water, I wasn't any closer to figuring this all out, that's when it hits me, I wasn't going to figure this out by myself, before I try talking to Eve, I had to ask myself one question, did I like Eve enough to have a relationship with her? She had made it clear she wants a relationship with me.

After another ten minutes and I was still no closer to figuring out what I want, I decided to just give up and go and talk with Eve, because I didn't want things to be awkward between us, as I stood up all that water I had been drinking hit my bladder big time, I rush to the toilet to empty my bladder, I stumble as I was still a little drunk, I consider trying to sleep it off before talking with Eve, yes that's what I will do, I will sleep it off and try talking to Eve in the morning before we need to have our meeting with the director at 10am, that would give us time to talk.

As I washed my hands, I caught a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror, after drying my hands, I place my hands on the side of the sink and lean onto the sink letting out a breath as I look into my own eyes staring back at me.

"Deja Vu," I said without thinking, then it hit me history was about to repeat itself, Paget and I had dated while on Criminal Mind's, even though we had started dating before our two characters had gotten together, our relationship had become very public, after Paget and I finally called it quits, we had only stayed friends because we still had to work together, the same thing is happening with Eve, our characters might not be in a relationship but they are in love, there will be a good chance that if Eve and I do have a romantic relationship, the same thing will happen to us and our relationship will become very public and we will have to end things, plus I had promised myself after Paget I would never get involved with a co-star again, Eve and I can only be friends, nothing more.

With that in mind, I walk out of the bathroom, I grab my room key and phone, throwing them into my bag, I leave my room and walk down the corridor bare foot, once I reach Eve's hotel room, I inhale deeply before I knock on the door, waiting nervously for Eve to open the door, after a minute without Eve answering, I decide to just leave it until morning as I was feeling a little lightheaded from all the wine, just as I was about to walk away, Eve opened her hotel room door.

"I didn't think I would be seeing you until tomorrow," Eve says with puffy pink eyes like she had been crying, she also looked as those she might have sobered up a bit herself.

"Can we talk?" I asked nervously.

"Sure," Eve says stepping aside to let me inside, "Look I am so sorry, I shouldn't have said anything, God I feel like an idiot... can you forget I said anything? can we just go back to being friends? Please," Eve asks me with sad eyes that break my heart.

"Eve, you're not an idiot, we can remain friends if you like, just know that we can never be anymore then friends," I tell her, at seeing the disappointment written on her face, I get the strong urge to pull her into a hug, I decide against it.

"I can live with having you just as my friend, I hope Paget knows how lucky she is," Eve says looking down at her hands.

"Paget and I are just friends and we are not getting back together," I wanted to make sure that was abundantly clear.

"I don't understand, if you and Paget are not together or trying to work things out, why won't you give..." Eve stopped mid-sentence as if she has just come to some realisation, "I get it, I really thought you had some feelings towards me, I guess I let my own feelings get in the way, letting myself believe you have feelings as well, stupid!" Eve says calling herself stupid.

"You have feelings for me?" I asked her shocked, she told me she wanted to kiss me for weeks now and that she would like a relationship, however hearing that she has feelings changes things.

"Does it matter?" Eve asks.

"It does to me," I tell her softly, Eve let out a sigh then nodded her head.

"The moment I realise I had feelings towards you, it had hit me like a ton of bricks, it was in this very room," Eve says looking towards her sofa, I got the feeling she might have been sitting on the sofa at the time she had worked out that she had feelings towards me, oh my head was swimming, this was too much.

"Tell me," I said looking at Eve, needing to know if I had done or said anything that made her believe I have feelings towards her.

"I had been thinking about our upcoming kissing scene for weeks, the closer we became, the more I thought about it, and the more I thought about it, the more nervous I got, and I couldn't understand why I was so nervous, it isn't like I haven't done a kissing scene before or kissed a woman before, I try to put it out of my mind when you were away, filming on location, I started missing you and our little chats in the morning," Eve says, and we share a little smile at the memory with us talking in hair and make-up in the mornings.

"I missed you as well Eve," I tell her reaching for her hand without thinking as it has become so natural, Eve allowed me to take her hand.

"Anyway, I had just started watching Criminal Minds and every time you came on screen my heart would do a little jump, I didn't think much of it at the time, then when it kept happening I simply told myself it was because I was missing you, missing your friendship, then the day before you were due to come back, I was watching Criminal Minds and like I told you, I am on season 2 now, I was watching a episode where Emily takes a hold of your face in her hands, telling you to look at her... watching that interaction between the two of you on screen, while knowing your dating history, made me realise in that moment I had feelings for you, because my heart was pounding so hard against my chest, I could no longer deny my feelings," Eve said lowering her eyes to the floor, but kept holding my hand.

"Oh Eve," I say sadly, I think I know what scene she is talking about. But Paget & I hadn't started dating until after we finished season 2.

To Be Continued:

This Chapter is a little longer than normal, I hope you enjoyed it, until next time R&R, be kind.