After putting the younger man to his room. Hyunjin's awaited moment of the whole day came. Meaning he could go to his room in peace, lock the door, take a long and warm shower, go back to his bed and finally jerk the fuck off because he wasn't able to do it for weeks straight and it was starting to be frustrating and it was influencing his behavior with the members. He cried because he wasn't able to get one move good in the dance he had for their comeback, making the others in the room shocked because Hyunjin rarely cried, and he definitely didn't cry of not getting a stupid dance move the right way. As he was about to lay down and start imagining absolutely disgusting scenarios with his friend, he got a notification.
"Waiting for the pics sweetheart, you don't wanna experience last time again do you? Who am I kidding, you probably enjoyed it because the way you were moaning was telling everything. Disgusting slut. Send the pictures now or I am coming to drag you out of your little dorm bitch."
This was another reason why Hyunjin rarely did anything these days. He felt disgusted and disappointed every time he even tried to relieve some stress. Why did he though that making a deal with this kind of person would help him?
He felt cold sweat sliding on his forehead. His eyes started to water and his hands started to shake. He couldn't catch a breath and he thought he was gonna have a panic attack until he reminded himself that if he doesn't send the pictures now, its not gonna end well for him.
So with shaky hands and face wet from tears, he started to take pictures of his whole body. He specifically made sure that the pictures were cut perfectly to not show his face since he knew the pictures were being sold.
Once he was done, he sent them.
"I'm sorry for making you wait Sir, here are the pictures"
He felt like crying all over again.
He felt so disgusting with himself.
"Good boy, I'll leave you alone for now. Have fun in your pathetic little life because the only thing good about you are your selling looks slut."
Hyunjin felt like throwing up.
* * *
Deciding that he no more felt like letting of some stress, he went to the dorms kitchen to make himself a warm chocolate and some instant noodles.
When he was waiting for his food to be done, the memories of all the horrific nights came back to him. He felt the disgusting hands all over himself. No matter how many times he showered after that, the feeling still lingered there.
He remembers every spot the hands touched. He remembers the texture of the hands and the harsh words that were thrown his way.
He remembers the sickening smiles forming on their faces.
He remembers the disgusting feeling of a tongue in his mouth he didn't want to have.
He remembers every little thing in detail, even when he doesn't want to.
He felt tears burning into his cheeks while he let out quiet sobs. He unexpectedly felt a hand on his back, caressing it comfortingly, and his sobs got louder.
He wanted Felix by his side. Where is Felix?
"Hyunjin? What happened?"
He recognized the voice, but it wasn't the one he wanted to hear in his ear right now. It wasn't the comforting, deep voice. He started crying harder to the point everyone in the dorm woke up.
"Fucking hell, who is making all this noise in the middle of the night?"
That wasn't the voice either. Where is the voice he wants to so desperately hear right now?
"Hyunjin? What's wrong? Jeongin what the fuck did you do to him?"
"I've done shit! I just came here and wanted to calm him down but he started crying even more!"
"What is all this noise here?"
That was it.
He was here.
He wants him next to him.
He wants Felix.
"Yo-Yongbok-"
"Hm? What are you saying Hyung?"
"Fe-Felix. Felix."
"Felix? Hyung do you want Felix-hyung?"
"Gosh he's shaking so much"
"Hyunjin? Come here"
The moment he felt arms around him he stopped shaking so much, only little sobs left his mouth here and there.
"Guys go to sleep, I'll handle him"
"But-"
"Seungmin, go"
Felix said with a glare and the younger boys left the kitchen to go to their rooms.
"F-Felix-"
"Shh Jinnie, I'm here. Take a deep breath and calm yourself first okay? Can you do that for me Hyung?"
The honey-like warm voice was doing wonders to Hyunjin's panicked mind. He did what he was told to do and he seemed calmer as the time passed.
"You want to talk here or do you want to go to your room?"
"Room"
"Okay-"
"Y-your room"
There were a few seconds of silence but eventually Felix flashed his loving smile and agreed.
"Okay, let's go to my room Hyung"
"Food, the food i-is done"
"Hm?"
Felix looked at the counter and saw a bowl of instant noodles and a hot chocolate.
"Okey, I'll take those but you have to walk on your own, can you do that Hyung?"
After a bit of hesitation, Hyunjin nodded and walk alongside Felix to his room.
* * *
After settling down on the bed with the bowl of noodles empty alongside with the chocolate, the boys cuddled but not like they always did.
Hyunjin for the first time was the one who was resting his head on the youngers chest. It felt nice.
He felt nice.
"Wanna talk about earlier Hyung?"
He actually wanted to just spill everything in his heart to the younger, but he actually couldn't do that.
He nodded his head as a no.
"Okay that's fine, you wanna cuddle until we sleep?"
He nodded a yes.
"Okay, let's sleep then hm? Goodnight Hyung"
Felix hand fell to Hyunjin's hair as he caressed it until he fall asleep, Hyunjin doing the same before him, drowning in the youngers scent and the feeling of his fingers in his hair.
The things you make me feel
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