I'm fine
But I'm not fine
It's okay
But it's not
I'm happy
But I'm not
Two things can exist at once
It may not make sense
But it's the truth
My truth
I don't know if I'll ever be one or the other at once
Or if I'll constantly be both at the same time
I don't know what's wrong with me
But I know it feels bad
I know it feels sad, painful.
I know I'm stuck in the loop
And I don't know how to break it
This loop makes me think bad things about myself
I give my all to one
And none to myself
It's painful
I can ignore it for a while, and then I'll be happy
But at the same time I'm not
And it'll catch up with me
And the loop continues
I'm okay
But I'm not.
Idk how to feel anymore
- s
