The Sins Of Tomorrow

01

I held my hands together as I watched my friends laugh their arse off because of something I dont even remember. Naka upo ako ngayon sa chair ng table namin, trying to gather all my remaining soberness while they danced in the middle of this bar like some drunk college kids

sober pa sila sa lagay nayan

My whole body feels numb. I felt cold but I felt hot at the same time. Hindi ko alam kung kailangan ko na ipa check ang mata ko o dahil to sa nainom ko.. my vision is blurry

I felt like passing out with my head--my whole world spinning.

This was supposed since na survive namin ang buong school year, but here I am. High. I think I drank a little too much.

Not surprised tho

With my remaining sanity, i gathered all my belongings like a responsible drunk person would. I closed the zipper of my white shoulder bag and wore it just incase

I called out Autumn but I wasnt even sure if i really did.. I cant hear my own voice

All my senses failed me

I tried my best to hide it until everything went black---

A few seconds zapped i tried fighting it kaya pinikit pikit ko ang mata ko, then i saw him.

My first love

My Jeremiah

Why are you here?

I wanted to say that, pero i couldn't. Or i did? Hindi na ako sure. All I know was i was smiling like an idiot while caressing his face

It felt warm. He was real.

He mouthed a few words but i couldnt make up anything with it. I was blinking so hard trying to stay awake..

I wanted to puke. I wanted to sleep. I wanted to do everything i could possibly do

The next thing I knew, he was pushing me away for trying to make out with him, "Lasing kana. Umuwi kana" he said, surprisingly heard the rejection well

I smiled

Again like an idiot

I had missed him

I waited for him for four years.

"Please stay" i managed to utter the words somehow before bumagsak ang ulo ko

🥂

"Gaga ako na nga!"

"Ako na kasi!"

I groaned-- pero agad akong napa bangon. Ang sakit ng aking putanginang head!

"Good morning princess" bati sakin ni Spring

She wasn't smiling

Dahil sa greeting nya, napa punta narin sakin sina Summer at Autumn na kanina lang eh nag babangayan.

"Okay kana ate?" Summer asked

"Teh sa susunod na mag iinom kami iiwan ka talaga namin! Bwesit ka!" Autumn joked

Umiling nalang ako. I guess sanay na sila sa ganito. They dont look surprised at all.

My name is Eleanor Winter Lopex, im 18 years old, The oldest in our friend group. Probably the most FUCKED up, pero the most well oriented ate.. not the best role model though

All of us are heavy drinkers, pero im the only one who doesn't stop till I black out. That's why they dont leave me alone everytime we go out for drinks, 'mamaw' daw ako sa alak, sabi usually ni Autumn. A liability

Sa bahay ni Autumn ang pinakamasasandalang lugar kapag nag lasing or mag lalasing ang buong tropa since wala ang mama nya most of the time

Bawal kasi ako iuwi sa bahay for obvious reasons

Since sobrang aga pa naman, Spring decided to cook brunch while kaming tatlo, nanood ng movie sa TV.

It was a scene where the guy was bringing the leading lady home because she was drunk.

They all laughed because it reminded them daw about me and Spring last night--I dont know what they were talking about

Lasing kana. Umuwi kana

Iniling ko ang ulo ko nang biglang sumakit ang sintido ko followed by those voices. What the hell!

"Was I.. talking to uh-- someone, last night?" Tanong ko sakanila randomly which made them look at me

"Dami teh, landi mo nga eh"

Nag high-five sila ni Summer. Hay nako diko talaga ma gets tong dalawa. They're super inseparable pero they fight all the time

I turned to look at Spring to ask for answers, binaba nya ang tingin nya nang mag tama ang tingin namin, "Inuwi ka namin. Pero bago un, may naalala kaba?"

"Kinda, pero putol putol or pixelated na ewan" sagot ko saka tumayo para pumunta sakanya. I wanted to help her

Inaalis nya yung balot ng hatdog saka sinusugatan ng mga maliliit na linya bago nya nilalagay sa pan

Nang makarating ako sa tabi nya, inusog nya yung tasa sakin. Pitch black ang laman at evident na mainit dahil sa kaunting usok na umaakyat

"Paubat ka muna" she said with a serious tone

Spring is only months younger than me. Sobrang unserious pero if needed, sobrang mature nya. She's probably the rightful ate, if not because of her weird humor most of the time

Pero she always treated me differently. Autumn suggested na maybe she was intimidated by how I treat most of the people i know, but I doubt it. Im not intimidating

Saka we used to be close back then.. i dont know what happened

"Thank you" sabi ko after kong kumuha ng kutsara saka uminom ng kaunti sa nascoop non. "Uhm so, may kausap ba'ko kagabi?"

Nag lakad sya papalayo sakin papunta sa ref, dala dala ang bawang at tupperware, bumalik ulit sya. This time pinanggigigilan nya na yung bawang by aggressively hammering them with her hands, nasa gitna ang kitsilyo na naka lay flat

"I remembered Jeremiah.. pero it just felt so random--"

"Oo, andun sya"

She walked away again. This time she was torturing the rice like it was some wet sock na kailangan pigain

Dinako nag tanong pa

Hirap nya naman kausapin haha.

After what felt like forever, Spring finally called Autumn and Summer to eat. I was too full with the brewed coffee Spring gave me kaya dinako kumain

I just decided to sit with them.

A notification popped up on my lock screen

Jerykmiah28 followed you back

I stared at it for a whole ass minute before questioning its existence--my existence

Followed me back???

Kelan ko sya finollow?