Love by choice ( Ashtray)

Chapter 9: Forgive me

I walked in the store seeing them packing things around (drugs).

,, Sorry but we are closed, come back a couple hours later" Fez said.

Then they looked at the entrance.

,, Oh hell no" Ash said kinda pissed.

,, What the fuck is she doing here ?" He asked Fez.

,, Yo kid you gotta go" Fez said.

I didn't move.

,, I just wanna talk to Ashtray " I said quietly.

,, We have nothing to talk about" he said coldly.

Ouch but I deserved it.

,, Please I'll be quick" I said holding my cries back.

He shook his head.

,, Bro she's not gonna leave you alone" Fez said to him.

Ash growled and rolled his eyes.

,, You've got 5 minutes not more" he said.

I nodded.

,, Do you wanna go out to talk or ?" I asked unsure.

,, Nah I think what you gonna say is bullshit anyway so" he shrugged.

,, Okay I know you are mad at me but I can explain it " I said.

He chuckled.

,, I promise you that what ever happened in between us I wanted it and I wasn't pretending" I said making him believe me.

But I don't think he did.

,, I know that what my uncle said is messed up but it wasn't the way he said. Only the very first day when I came here that was the only time that I was pretending the next day when we hung out it was real. You were so nice to me that I didn't wanted to use you , but my uncle is a horrible person and he is the only one I have so even if he uses me for stuff I still did them.

So I told him lies every time we hung out. That's why he thought that I got you wrapped around my finger like that. But I actually fell sooner than I expected.

But if I'm being honest since many years you made my days better and made me feel like I deserve happiness and to be treated right.

Yesterday when I came over I wanted to tell you about everything but I was afraid that you would get it in a wrong way and i didn't wanted you to be mad at me.

I'm so sorry for doing this I know that I made a mistake by even saying yes to my uncle for the first day but I had no choice" I finished saying when they just looked at me.

Ash looked at the floor like he was thinking.

,, Ash please, say something" I begged him. Holding my tears back.

,, I know that Mouse is a bad person and that you had no choice but it's hard to believe you okay " he shook his head.

,, You've could have told me in the beginning and I would have helped you not going through it and see where we are now " he said chuckling.

,, How am I supposed to know that everything you say is the truth. " he said.

I got frustrated and wanted him to believe me.

,,Ashtray, I fucking give you my virginity isn't that enough" I said a little louder cause I was frustrated.

Their eyes grow wide.

Fez eyes probably because he didn't knew that we had sex.

,,You were a virgin ?!" Ashtray asked confused.

,, Yeah, I don't think that I was so dumb to do such a stupid thing if I was pretending" I shrugged.

Ashtray came grabbed my arm and pulled me outside.

,, Can you please forgive me ?" I asked as tears run down on my cheek.

He stared at me.

,, I love you, I need you in my life Ashtray" I whispered.

He gently wiped my tears away and kissed me.

,, I love you too" he said with a little smile and pulled me in a hug.

I buried my head in his neck and lightly sobbed.

He was stroking my back.

,,It's okay calm down, I'm not mad at you " he whispered.

,,If you need help because of your uncle just let me know okay ? " he asked an I nodded .

,,I think I'm gonna go home now " I said.

,,Do you need a ride ?" He asked.

,, No its okay" I said.

,,Take care" he said and kissed my cheek.

As i arrived home I went straight to my room because I didn't wanted to talk to my uncle but he still came in.

,, Where were you ?" He asked curious.

,,I went to Fez and Ash store" I said sitting down.

,, Why?" He asked.

,, To apologize and explain everything" I said.

He stood there confused.

,, Is that how much you care about them?" He asked and I nodded.

,, About earlier I just wanted to say sorry I shouldn't have gotten you in all this. Next time I know that if I have a problem I'll fix it by myself" he said smiling.

,, Good, can you leave now" I said.

He closed the door and I got ready for bed.